Psycho!!!

A crazy person won't admit he is crazy!
A Psychopath won't tell you he is having psychology illness!
Right! That's why there are a lot of crazy person in the world.
And they can live so near me!
I am not looking down on them!
They are poor and pity as me!
Just because I am as crazy as they are!
I hate hypocritical person!
I hate acting hypocrite!
When I sad, I will cry!
When I depressed, I will face black!
When I speechless, I will stood!
That's me!
I hate to being fake!
I can't hide my feeling!
I can't pretend I am happy when I deep inside is sad!
I can't smile to you when honestly I want to cry!
I am going crazy!
I am being nuts!
What can I do?
What should I do?
Just pretend nothing? Or fight for it?
Give you some space to solve the problem?
Or just pretend there is no problem?
I have no appetite to eat.
I feel sick, headache so serious.
Everytime when I heard something,
my headache will increase!
I just want to be happy,
that's all!
Stop bothering me!
Stop foolishing me!
Stop everything!
Just give me so fresh air!
Give me a glass of tea,
a chocolate cake,
some blue music,
a comfortable sofa,
then let me relax for 1 hour.
I don't want to become crazy.
Please just let me lay down,
and feel the world.

My office desk!!

Full of documents,
heavy workload,
a tons of things need to do...
sit infront of my desk over 9 hours a day,
sometimes need to attend a 4 hours long meeting.
I think my degrees of eye sight already increase.



But glad that I have 精神食糧,
when everytime I look at those photos on my monitor.
It makes me so awake and sweet.
My lovely cats, my honey,
makes me feel energytic.


Also the straight road photo make me so relax.
I did have some emotional illness,
and I need to relax and think positive.
This is the only method to make me feel happier.
Anyway, I will try to make myself happier.

Yesterday go to Mega Box with mum and my honey,
very warm night.
He is the only boyfriend which will always entertainment my mum.
He love to go out with my mum,
buy her dinner and shopping with her,
while looking at their back when they are chatting,
I feel so glad that they can 相處得這麼融洽!
They laugh and speak loud,
while we are shopping in the furniture shop,
they together discuss the sofa and kitchen setting,
I am really happy with that...
Life so simple, we only need to enjoy it.
I wish that this wonderful moment can last forever.

老公對我好重要!!!!

事情發生在美國的一所大學。
在快下課時, 教授對同學說:我和大家玩遊戲，誰願意配合我一下。
一女生走上台來。
教授說:" 你在黑板上寫下你難以割捨的二十個人的名字。 "
女生照做了。有她的鄰居、朋友、親人等等。
教授說:" 那你除掉一個這裏面你認為最不重要的人。 "
女生除掉了一個她鄰居的名字。
教授又說:" 你再除掉一個。 "
女生又除掉了一個她的同事。
教授再說: " 你再除掉一個。 "
女生又除掉了一個。 ......
最後，黑板上只剩下了三個人，她的父母、丈夫和孩子。
教室非常安靜，同學靜靜的看著教授，感覺這似乎已不再是一個遊戲了。
教授平靜的說: " 再除掉一個。"
女生遲疑著，艱難的做著選擇 ......
她舉起粉筆，除掉了父母的名字。
" 再除掉一個。 "身邊又傳來了教授的聲音。
她驚呆了，巍巍地舉起粉筆慢而堅決的又除掉了兒子的名字。
緊接著，她哇的一聲哭了，樣子非常痛苦。
教授等她平靜了一下，說道: " 和你最親的人應該是你的父母和你的孩子，
因為父母是養育的人，孩子是你親生的，而丈夫是可以重新再尋找的，
為什麼丈夫反倒是你最難割捨的人呢？ "
同學靜靜地看著她，等待著她的回答。
女生平靜而又緩慢地說道: " 隨著時間的推移，父母會先離我而去，
孩子長大成人後肯定也會離我而去，真正陪伴我度過一生的只有我的丈夫


好有感慨的一段話,
如果問我, 我真的不知道怎樣答,
答不出來....
我希望我老公可以陪伴我一生,
不要早過我死去,
因為我希望死前還能感覺到他的體溫!!!

Sick Sick Sick!!!

I am still sick.
Visit doctor twice a week.
Face turn blue.
Look like dying soon.
My family doctor can't tell what's going on.
Headache nonstop for 2 months,
vomit all the time,
no mood to eat,
always feel cold,
fever,
sweating....
What happen to me?
I don't know...
Doctor said maybe I am too stress,
maybe there are a lot of things bothering me,
maybe I have too much worries...
I want to relax, but just can't do it.
Tons of work accumalate on my desk.
I can't see my desk surface now.
Tomorrow is 8th June,
things gonna be changed from this special day.
My english exam is on 9th June,
and I still not yet have time to prepare.
Yes, I am lazy, but I am sick too.
I wish I can solve all the problems.
I wish that nothing gonna harm me again anymore.
I wish I can have a healthy body to enjoy my life.
Although my life so messy,
but I still want it to be great.

There are still have something which can make me happy.
My sweet heart gave me a ring today,
this is not a engagement ring,
but it still have some special meaning for me.

Thanks for take care such a annoying girl.
Thanks for spend so many night to take care a sick girl.
I love you so much!
I will wear this ring all the time!


MY lovely cats stay at my home over 5 years.
I love them too.
Everytime when I am sad,
they will make out a funny pose to make me laugh.
See this angle when she sleep.
So lovely and funny.
HAHAHAHHA!!!
Please don't die so early.
I wish I can die before you!

A very nice song from Michael Jackson

Lyrics~~
Another day has gone, I'm still all alone
How could this be? You're not here with me
You never said good-bye, someone tell me why
Did you have to go, and leave my world so cold?

* Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away?
Something whispers in my ear and says*

**That you are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone **
All alone, why, oh...

Just the other night, I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come, and hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers, your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand, then forever can begin

Oh...whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
Fly...and girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there...

Not alone,
You are not alone, you are not alone...

You just reach for me baby
In the morning in the evening
You're not alone, not alone
You and me, not alone, oh, together, together...