What the hell???

How can those old and unmarried woman so shit!
Jealous me pretty than you?
Jealous all male colleagues play with me?
Jealous I am so free in the office?
Oh my god.
You think I want to be so free?
How much I wish I can have things to do?
How much I wish your boss give me some project to handle?
How much I wish I no need to look at her ass face all the time?
Do you think I want to kick you out of the office?
Sorry, I am not so free.
I am not so bitchy to do this stupid thing.
DO you think I sit infront of the computer just for watching VCD?
Sorry, I think I watch VCD is much better than you watch the stock market.

How can people be so bitchy, and stupid.
You think you report to boss then he will fire me?
Even he fire me, I don't think he will thank you.
Because he just lose a great staff to work for him.
I am not scare of you.
At least I never make problems out.
At least my value is higher than you.

Come on, keep on giving me problems.
Keep on trouble me.
I won't scare you.
Because I have God.
And I am not a loser which need to use golden finger.
I am so mature that I believe I can get higher salary,
and better benefit in another company.
So, keep on treat me bad,
keep on report me,
keep on say bad words behind me.
I won't scare you.
This company lose me,
then you will know who is the most important!

Play it loud!!!

Last night I went to my church friend's home.
There were around 40-50 people in the house.
We earned a lot of red packet.
Ate a lot of delicious food.
Played a lot of crazy game.
I totally earned 14 red packets.
yeah!!!! You know??
The last time I earn red packet over 10 was when I am still in ATV.
There were 3 years ago. Thank God, you made me can have great lunch next month.

Thanks everybody gave me such a wonderful night.
My problems still here, and no one in the church really know my problem.
But from the time you guys play with me.
I totally forgot I am sad. I forgot I am waiting for a answer.
HAHAHAH!! I am not a old woman that so easy to forget something.
But when I so concentrate to play.
I found out that, I shouldn't keep sad on something.
I still have my friend, and normal life is not bad.
House party without wine and smoke also nice!
Playing a group game with 20 people.
I push you, you push me!
I laugh you, you itchy me!
Things just so simple.
I've never have such a group of playmate like this.
I really enjoy this feeling.
I think this is really a great gift that God gave to me.
I have never been to this situtaion.
Seems like everyone are so happy.
Seems like everyone are so helpful, and no plan on you.
Seems like everyone are not going to take any benefit on you.

Before I believe in God. I will just hang out with friends,
clubbing, drinking, smoking, and partying.
No goal, No point, Nothing.
And even have a lot of people surrounding me,
I will still feel lonely when I am alone only for 1 minute.
But last night, even when I am home,
I can still feel happy, awake even already 24:00
no lonely feeling.
No sad even problems still not yet solve.
No moody that I want to cry.
Everything just seems so good for me!

Thank God, you let me know that I deserve something better.
And you let me know that I can have a lot of healthy friends.
And you let people know I am PRINCESS!!!
HAHAHA!!
I am really glad that when I feel useless, lonely,
I have God. I have the chance to know about God.
And from the time I pray to god,
I know he will solve my problem,
I believe in it!
You should believe in it too.

Oh! I love this drama!

There's a long time I didn't watch any Chinese drama.
I realyl have no interest on those stupid topic.
Always act so stupid, and no main story.
I don't really like those drama in HK.
But I still Love TVB, Ok???
Don't fire me! HAHAH

Anyway, I've been watching Prison break before,
then Dexter, all english drama,
oh, but I still watch some Taiwan's drama,
just like " The devil beside me",
" Green light forest ", and this!!!
" HANAZAKARINO KIMITACHIHE "
I love handsome actors.
Although their acting are still so green.
But when I sad, they can make me laugh.
And when I look at such pretty face,
make me feel have energy,
and still believe this world is beautiful!

The story not bad.
Ella's acting is too over, but cute.
I love her real character, so tough, and strong,
boylish, but sometime so funny and make people laugh.
Those 2 main lead also not bad.
Handsome and smart. Nice and take care people.
Is there such a good guy still alive in this damn shit world?
I don't think so, or maybe I have no fate to know them.
Maybe I should take a flight to Taiwan,
and ask my brother introduce them to me.
Oh!! my god!!! I am fat how now!
hahahahah!! Dun laugh on me!
I am still Little girl!!!
I am still 少女!!!
hahahaha

Thx!! I realyl have a good time!

All my close friends knew that I am having some problems now.
And they all knew that I can't really handle it.
I still don't know how to solve all these questions.
My emotion keep up and down in every single minute.

I've been sad over these for few months,
and only some of my friends knew about it.
The one causing me problem,
I think he don't know what really happen on me.

Still have 15 days.
Then I think I really need to find out the solution.
Even thought the result maybe not a good ending.
But as William Hung said " I've already gave my best! I have no regret! "
Yes, I really no regret, if the only method is like this.
I think I will only follow the path that God ready for me.
God won't want me keep crying and crying on these stupid stuff.
And I think I deserve a better bright future.

Pray for me everyone!
I need the power of God.
I need the power to fight this war!

Is time to be mature!

I like Vivian Tsu,
I appreciated for her attitude.
She is pretty, smart, and nice.
She work from 15 years old.
Work for something she dislike.
She have a lot of sad stories,
she had a lot of painful relationship.
She got a lot of hurts.
But she still so positive,
I don't really know her,
but at least infront of the camera,
on the magazine,
it is not the first time she tells people,
that's how she face the sadness.

曾 經 情 海 翻 波 的 Vivian 依 然 相 信 愛 ，
更 深 信 有 一 生 一 世 的 愛 情 ，
珍 惜 對 方 的 同 時 ， 也 要 愛 自 己 ，
她 說 ： 「 愛 自 己 多 一 點 ， 就 是 女 生 不 要 委 曲 求 全 、
不 要 太 黏 、 可 以 別 問 永 遠 ，
因 為 對 達 不 到 承 諾 的 人 追 求 永 遠 ，
簡 直 是 自 尋 煩 惱 。
愛 自 己 ， 女 生 更 加 要 找 方 法 肯 定 自 己 的 存 在 價 值 ，
不 一 定 要 單 靠 男 人 對 你 的 愛 來 評 定 自 己 ，
例 如 有 人 是 溜 冰 高 手 ， 有 人 唱 歌 很 棒 ，
都 會 因 滿 足 而 得 到 快 樂 。 」
問 她 可 想 像 傳 說 中 的 長 生 不 老 ，
Vivian 搖 頭 說 ： 「 我 覺 得 長 生 不 老 很 可 憐 ，
我 要 經 歷 生 老 病 死 ， 不 要 長 生 不 老 ，
我 不 希 望 孤 獨 地 看 見 身 邊 我 愛 的 人 一 個 個 老 去 死 去 。 」
「 不 能 選 擇 的 時 候 就 須 把 事 情 變 成 為 一 件 快 樂 的 事 。
我 的 人 生 觀 就 是 快 樂 跟 樂 觀 ， 人 只 可 以 活 一 趟 ，
我 覺 得 很 多 事 情 可 以 從 不 同 角 度 去 看 ， 我 是 不 會 難 為 自 己 的 。 」

Really feel she is right,
when we meet something that we can't control,
why not we just let it go?
Why not we just let time smooth our pain?
We should try to make ourself happy.
We should enjoy everyday, every moment.
We should try not to regret.

There are too many things out of control.
A lot of things that we can't change.
I need to be mature,
I need to move on,
I shouldn't just sit here,
and wait or make myself cry all the time.

I should love myself more,
I should thank God gave me so many wonderful things,
I should thank I have friends when I sad,
I should thank I can have soup when Mum know I am tired.
There are a lot of things can make us sad,
but now, I only want to remember the things make me happy.
I want to thank everyone who are supporting me all the time.
I want to thank everyone who listen to my complain.

I will be ok soon.
Don't worry, I will love myself.