The Fourth day!

Sick again. Keep vomit these two day.
Don't know what happen.
No need to worry, I am not the Mother of God.
I won't suddenly to become pregnant without sex life.
Maybe too stress. Maybe not enough sleep.
Fainting all the time.
Don't even have the power to walk and stand.
What happen to me?

My mobile keeps ringing,
but I don't even have the energy to pick it up.
I know who's calling me.
I am not avoiding her.
Just I am really tired,
I don't want to temper to anyone.
Over 20 sms not yet reply.
Over 40 missed call.
6 hours marathon meeting everyday.
10-11 working hours.
wake up at 06:00.
HAHAHAHAH!!
Soon become super woman.

I enjoy this life, although it really makes me want to cry.
But really so happy that I can work like dog to fulfill my life.

To everybody, please don't try to ask me out before June.
Because I really don't have time.
Please don't stress me, and keep questioning me.
Because my brain was hanged already.
Trying so hard to become good girl.
Trying so hard to be a good girlfriend.
Yes, I am in love again.
But I feel so stressful when with him.
He is nice guy. He treat me so good too.
But I just feel so stressful when with him.
Maybe because he is too clever than me.
Seems like I can never reach his target.
Seems like I am always a naughty little girl in his heart.
I don't know.
But if next time when you all see me dating with a guy.
Then you will know who is he.
He is the fortunest person in the world,
because he have me!!
HAHAHAHA!!!
Yes, I am the stupid princess.

New Job!! New Life!! New Challenge!!!

Today is my third day of new company.
Yup, I changed my job to a new position.
MARKETING EXECUTIVE!!!
Sound like a very high position, right?
But honestly, I am just a small potato in here.
The first day here already have a big project to handle.
A very large China Expo. need to be settle down within a week.
And until yesterday, still have many things that need to arrange.
Stressful? Yes!
Helpless?? Yes!!
Exhausted??? Yes!!!
A lot of documents on my desk now.
And I need to go through all products in this company,
to make sure I understand what we are doing.
Don't have the mood to eat, and sleep,
I feel so stress!!!

I am not hating this job,
I love it!
I love this company, because I really can learn a lot.
But I have no confidence, because I am so stupid.
I need someone to teach me how to do,
but in this company, everyone are very busy.
They have a lot of works need to do.
So I must try do finish all the stuff by myself.
Anyway, I won't give up so early.
I will work hard.
I have power from God, and from someone.
Thank God, you gave me this chance to work like dog.
I will treasure this.

Depressed....

Is hard to make people believe me,
and is hard to make me believe someone.
What can ensure he is really treating you good?
What can ensure he is not foolishing you?
What can make him believe you've already try your best?
What can make him know you are serious?
Nothing, it seems only exchange your life with him,
is the only way to make him believe he is so important for you.
I am not talking about someone who really did it.
I just feel so sad that no one treasure my good.
No one appreciate for what I have done.
I don't need a compliment,
I just need you understand I really try my best to treasure you.
Please don't doubt me anymore.
I can see that you mistrust me via your eyes and voice.

Hate Raining Day

Uneasy day for me to go shopping.
Woke up at 07:45am.
Ready to go to the hospital to get my body check report.
Everythings fine. No dangerous signal from my body.
Thanks God.

Want to go shopping, but holy shit.
The sky turned black at 10:40am.
Red Cloud signal!!!
Looked at the sky, thick cloud.
Black sky, everything turn dark.
Rain like dog shit!!
I hate it.
It made my trousers all wet!!
Glad that I did bring out my umbrella!
But it was too small.
I still got wet!

I really don't like rainy day.
It turn down my mood too.
I was so glad that I can go shopping and relax.
But it rain!!! And red cloud!!!
At last, I went to some big mall!
Thanks God, I still can find nice pair of shoes, and pants!
I have new clothes for new job!!
Thanks God.

I really hope that my first day of new job will be nice!
I wish it would be a sunny day!
No Traffic Jam!
No accident!!
Must pray to god!

There are too many friends got marry or engage around me.
Although still have some just broke up with their lovers.
But I still wish that I can have a wonderful relationship too.
I am looking forward to find someone really love me,
and want to have a future with me.
Still waiting for it.
I know God will give me the BEST!!!

Must be a good girl!

Spent nine hours to study yesterday,
Thank God, at last I finished the first chapter of business law.
Really tough for me, because I didn't really study over 7 years.
And when I am still in secondary school,
I only concentrated to play and clubbing.
Now, I need to catch the chance and really upgrade myself.

Tonight, I must spend some time to study too.
Can't watch too much TV.
But I am afraid I will getting fat.
Because when I stressed and sleepy.
I need to eat a lot of snack to keep wake me up.
I ate a lot last night when I study until 2am.
This morning when I woke up,
I can still feel my stomach full of chips.
HAHAHAHAH!!!!
I can't stop myself to eat when I feel stressful.

I found out that a nice cartoon of Japanese.

You can find more episode in YouTube.
Really ugly drawing,
but I don't know,
I love cartoon.
It makes me feel relax.
It makes me forget my problems now.

So wish that someone can hug me now.
I really need some space to relax.