Secret Lover

What is secret lover?
That is someone we can sure not have result at this moment.
That is someone you can't have a normal relationship with.
That is your family, and friends were not really allow.
That is you can only love him in the dark.
That is you can only talk to when he is alone.
Is it poor??
I don't think so.
At least the feeling bewteen you and him is good.
Is it hard to keep?
I don't know.
At least you too will only have nice memory.
Is it means you can betray her?
I don't know.
But you can still have a normal relationship with other.
Is it stepping many boats?
I don't think so.
At least you are not playing her.
Is it so confuse?
I don't know.
At least you know he really love you just can't concentrate on you.
Will you still jealous?
Yes,
because you will jealous he can kiss and hug with other when you are not around.
will you lonely?
Yes,
because you will so wish he can spend every mintues to talk with you.
Will you angry?
Yes,
when you know he prefer a normal relationship with other
whether than try to have normal relationship with you.
Can you complain?
No.
Because your relationship with him is really hard to keep.
Can you ask him only belongs to you?
No.
Because you promise to be half of his lover.
Can he be you only lover after few years?
No one knows.
Let's try our best!

Nice TV program!!

Was watching this new season TV program.
Really not bad. Waiting to watch the GiGi Leung's version.
She act this program after she broke up with Ekin Cheung.
So touching when she talk about the relationship with him.
She also mention about her idea of LOVE.

She is pretty, tall, and clever.
She said she can love a person so deeply without reason.
She will so concentrate only on him.
But she also understand that when love was already faded out.
There is nothing she can do,
nothing she can do to keep someone to love her.
Sometime I feel she is a tough girl.
She love to control her life,
she love get what she want,
she need to be the winner.
Sometimes I feel she so poor,
she can't really get what she want,
she get hurts when no one around her.
But at least, she can face the truth,
she still believe in love.
I wish I can be stronger too.
Be independent!
Be strong!
Be happy!

I already forgive him!!

People around me kept saying my ex bf's bad word.
Said he is an asshole which not treat me good.
Said he not serious with me these few years.
Said he only know how to play and spend money like water.
Said he never have planning with me.
Said he so selfish that he don't know how to love people.
Friends,
I know you all so care about me.
I know you all so dislike him because he hurted me.
But please stop complain him.
Although he really hurt me.
Although he really not treat me so good these few years.
Although he don't know how to love me.
But, it was already past.
We've already broke up.
He is not that bad as you said.
He did make me happy.
He did make me laugh like crazy.
He did give me surprise.
He did romance me.
He did make me so pround.
He did make me so touching.
Yes, he don't know how to love me with my way.
But I really don't want anyone to hate him.
He is not that bad,
just he is not that into me.
Just we are not really suit for each other.
There's nothing wrong bewteen us.
Only because we don't have fate to be together forever.

I will still pray for him,
I hope he can find someone good in the future.
Who can make him give up everything,
and promise to spend the rest of his life with.

Life always so tough,
we can't get the prefect job which we dream of.
We can't love the one which we love the most.
We can't really get what we want,
only can get what people offer us!
But this is the truth,
this is life.
Wake up everyone,
don't dream anything.
Face the truth.

Things going smooth!!!

Yup, I resigned at my current company,
last day would be 22nd April.
Last few days I was still so worry about my future.
Cause I not yet find a new job,
even my part time night shift also not so stable.
But after I pray to god every night,
and SOMEONE pray for me too.
At last, I confirmed to change my part time job to full time.
Starting day from 1st May.
CONGRATULATION!!!
And last month, I worked some freelance job,
they will pay me within these week.
Things really going smooth now.

Although my current company still so mess,
and they are keep arguing everyday,
made everything small to big.
I don't know, I wish they can solve the problems soon.

Thanks God helping me all the time.
Thanks God sent me so many people help me in this period.
Thanks my angel always talk with me,
but don't make out more problem anymore la.

I really wish to have a better life now.
I wish I can really stand for a company over 1 year,
and gain some experience.
Then I can offer a better job.
And I wish I can go to Finland 5 years later.
And move to a big house with my sweetheart in the future.

Pray to God, Pray evething, everyday!

Depressed!!!

Just resigned my day time job,
last day would be on 22nd April.
There are a lot of things happen during this period.
Learnt a lot from this company,
I can't said this company is totally shit,
because at least, it show me how bitchy can someone be.
God ask us to forgive people,
I would like to forgive them too,
because they don't really know what they are doing,
and they don't have God beside them, protect them,
they need to use a lot of method to kill others,
then make themselves alive.
I will forgive you all,
forgive what you talk about me behide my back,
forgive what the lie u said on me,
forgive how many mistakes you pull to me.
I still wish this company can be more strong in the future.

My school life start, but I am not so happy,
because I am really stupid,
I can't understand the toturial,
I can't remember the things,
I spend over 3 hours a day to study,
but I can't even remember anything now.
I really want to cry,
how come I become so stupid?
Why??
Can anyone teach me?
Can anyone help me??
Sleep so less everynite,
not enough rest,
still sick, not yet recover.
God you are testing me?
I won't give up,
but it just seems too difficult for me.
EXHASUTED!!!
FREAKING ANGRY !!!

In this world, there are a lot of crazy people,
they will imagine you are his girlfriend,
or giving him chance to chase you.
They would believe you only treat them friend,
I mean normal friend which will only dinner or movie.
They will think that can kiss you whatever they want,
hold your hand, and touch your face!
How come nowaday, people become this shit?
You don't have mind?
Girls and Boys must be couple?
Cant only be friend?
Maybe your world too small,
make you only focuz on love and sex,
don't relaise FRIEND exist!!!