結婚!!!

今年有兩個朋友結婚,
一個有通知我去,
另一個我是由朋友口中得知!!!
兩個朋友訂婚,
一個已經決定好,
一個還在猶豫中!!

祝福她們都婚姻愉快,
好好享受結婚前後的感覺!!!

能找到一個喜歡你, 你又喜歡他的人,
好難!!
能肯定他對你的愛, 又敢於為你作出承諾,
也難!!
可以保持甜蜜戀愛一生一世, 互相扶持直到老死,
更難!!

但我在為此而努力當中,
希望你們也一樣,
幸福並不是必然,
可以永久的又有誰只想曾經擁有?
可以白頭的又有誰選擇放手??

請假一天!!!

手受傷了, 好痛,
連打字的力氣也沒有,
一面寫blog, 一砷忍著痛楚,

這樣的傷恐怖嗎? 讓人作嘔嗎??
地鐵裡的人眼光很奇怪,
好像看不起你似的~!
你們不要問我為什麼弄到這麼傷,
也不要問我為什麼會受傷...
只因為我也不知道為什麼會這樣!!!!

專程請了一天假, 去看了醫生,
除了看手, 也去看了專科,
就是那一直困擾了我幾個月的問題....
醫生的答覆讓我好害怕..
她說:" 我幫你轉到醫院化驗做一個詳細報告吧!"
她不肯說我有什麼問題,
只說這不是常見的病....
好害怕...
真的好害怕...
頭好痛, 一想到下星期才知道報告說什麼,
我就什麼食欲也沒有了...

看到別人這麼開心,
因為找到一份好工作開心,
因為男朋友跟她結婚開心,
因為去了一次旅行開心,
因為買了最新款LV包包開心,
而我...
股票輸掉一半身家...
工作壓力超大...
去不了旅行...
有怪病纏身...
和媽媽冷戰中...
我想開心...
可是好難, 原來我把我可以幸福快樂的權利送給了某人之後,
我就變得一無所有,
對呀, 我跟主說過,
要祂幫我讓某一個人幸福,
所以祂把我的幸福送給她...
...
...
...
手好痛...
是時候吃藥...
不寫了...

死亡之計!!

看到這一個網頁, 可以知道自己什麼時候死去,
膽粗粗查了一下!!
其實我好怕知道自己幾時死,
如果比我想像中快, 我真的不知怎麼辦!!!


不過, 結果還合我意,
2039年才死去, 大約57歲,
現在我25歲, 還有32年, 已經足夠了,
我也不想看到自己老到成面皺紋!!!

不過, 在生日前幾天死去,
好可憐, 如果可以在快樂地慶祝之後才死,
我死前的臉上一定可以看到笑容!!!

看來要好好想一下有什麼死前計劃了!!!


很無聊之下, 我又再測一次,
這一次我遲了一年才死,
哈哈, 次次也不同,
我要死很多次嗎??
我拿男朋友的生日去查,
可惡, 竟然說我男友於2003年死了!!
痴線!! 我男朋友還好健在!!
所以大家當它是一個小玩意玩一下就好啦!
千萬別把結果當真!!

當一切不是如期待的那樣.....

風雨過後不一定有彩虹,
用心經營不一定有回報,
真心對待不一定被感謝,
付出之後不一定有收成...

當你一心一意地培養一棵小樹苗,
每一天給他澆水,
帶他曬一曬太陽,
幫他施肥, 除蟲, 拔雜草,
看著他一天一天長大,
可是他就是站不穩,
東倒西歪,
無論你花多大的氣力,
他還是軟軟地躺在地上,
忘記了你每天花多少時間去培養他,
忘了你如何承諾會好好照顧他,
忘了你一整個花園裡只種了他這一盆小盆栽,
可是他還要長出刺來弄痛你,
當你伸手去摸他, 去安撫他, 去關心他,
他卻把刺伸向你, 刺穿你的皮膚,
看著你的血一滴一滴地淌下來,
你痛得眼睛都紅了, 淚也緩緩地流下來,
他還是不相信自己會成長,
不相信你真的在用心經營和這一盆小盆栽的關係.....

無論再痛, 無論手被刺了多少次,
農夫仍然在小植物的身邊,
為的只是希望他有一天明白,
自己是多緊張他的小生命,
有多在乎這一棵小樹苗變成堅固的大樹,
無論風吹雨打, 也不會再破壞到農夫和他的關係....

汗水和淚水融化在一起,
血也被稀釋了, 淡化成暖暖的粉紅色...
有誰懂得跟植物對話?
有植物語言學這一門的學生嗎???
農夫有好多話想對小樹苗說,
可是小樹苗聽不懂人類的話,
風呀, 你可以告訴他, 我有多緊張他嗎?
太陽呀, 你可以告訴他, 我有多關心他嗎?
雨呀, 你可以告訴他, 我有多愛他嗎?
雲呀, 你可以告訴他, 他對我有多重要嗎?
泥濘呀, 你可以告訴他, 我在為他的鬥氣而輾轉難眠嗎?
蚯蚓呀, 你可以告訴他, 我有多期望他長成一棵千年不倒的大樹嗎?

小樹苗會不會體諒農夫, 然後奮力地成長??
結果我不知道, 故事的結尾要看小樹苗的意願,
農夫還在忘於拔雜草, 施肥, 澆水,
無論天晴, 天黑, 下雨, 狂風,
農夫還是陪在小樹苗的身邊陪伴他....

I don't really understand!

I don't understand why people need to start a fight,
after reading my blog and comment.
Isn't it so meaningless to keep complain anything?
There is freedom of speech.
Everyone can have their right to say anything.
We have the right to delete any suck comment if we don't like too.
It's just so easy to click a "delete" button.
I don't know why must have someone keep scolding me,
with non sense complain.
I didn't ask anyone to leave her a comment.
I didn't ask anyone to read her blog.
I've already delete her direct link in my blog.
I just do what ever she want me to do,
even what her bf ask me to out of her life forever.
What she still want to have from me?
Keep email, sms, and leave comment to scold me,
blame me with unconscious reason.
I can't see that why she must hate me so much.
Am I wrong to write my blog?
I, honestly don't really feel that I did scold her in my blog.
Or do anything which maybe make her misunderstand.
Why she still be so mad and keep scolding me like that?
Is crazy that after I done so many things that she and her bf want me to do,
and the result get back to me is a tons of complain,
and a tons of blaming.
I never try to forget any things which related to the terms of "4 years".
I just try my best to make those party feel that they will be happy without me.
But seems that no matter what I have been done is meaningless.
Because no one will thank you.

What a tough day!!!

10 tons of works stucking on my desk.
Non stop working. No appetite for anything.
At last I went to a cafe for lunch.
Ate a chocolate cheese cake and a glass of tomato juice.

Suck cake, but lazy for 1 hour,
and leave the office to breath some fresh air,
better than none.
Isn't it so healthy lunch?
Maybe, I hate to keep eating delievery lunch box everyday with same style.
Lying on the big sofa, look out the window which is raining outside.
So wish that I can no need to work,
just stay home and sleep as much as I can,
study what I want to study.
It is really tired to sleep less than 4 hours everyday,
and wake up at 06:30 to back to work.
OL life is not easy.


Glad that my honey always by myside.
Message with me when I am exhausted.
Sweet word to me to entertain me.
Although we will have some small fight.
But after 5 mins, we will be ok again.
Just like the weather.
Sometimes good sometimes bad.
How sweet that if he can hug me to sleep when I feel depress from work.
How sweet if he can kiss my face when I need encourage.
I miss you honey!!!

Oh, my new hair style so childish,
but in this pic, I look like 陳法拉,
I don't really like her,
too 發姣. I don't like girl so stick to guy!
Face without make up, I look so pale.
Need to retouch the pic before post.
Super big black eye circle.
tough skin... Sigh....
Need totry sleep more.....

Funny!

It's just so funny that someone keep SMS, email me these few days,
keep asking me to delete her direct link in my blog,
so that no visitors from my site will go to her blog and comment.

Is't that so funny that no freedom of speech in this world?
I can't see any problem which disturb her!
She have the right to delete any annoying comment,
which she don't want to appear in her blog,
she can't stop any visitor read her blog,
not only my visitor will go to her blog,
any one from this world which is alive can have chance to read!

My blog is open for comment,
but I will modify which one I want it show up,
I won't ask people not to comment and read my blog.
That is meaningless because my blog is open for anyone.
Stranger or friend also can read, comment.

But I will still do her a flavour,
I will delete her in my blog,
no more direct link which can relate she and me.
If this action can make her feel happier,
and feel no more people will comment in her blog,
then I am so please to do that.
I am too kind!

Don't want to waste my time to bargaining with anyone,
better spend more time to entertain my family, and my honey!

Once I delete her link in my blog,
I will not read her blog anymore,
because I can feel that I am not welcome to read her blog.
Fine, I don't have time to read too.

怎麼辦??

這個學期第一份功課成績出來了,
會計有76分, 很不錯...
應該不用擔心肥老....
可是...
法律只有40分....
天呀, 剛剛合格...
怎麼辦???
我已經很努力...
可是太難了....
太多東西要記,
太多case要熟讀....
廢寢忘餐地念書已經三天..
沒有胃口吃東西,
站著也能睡,
時時刻刻都有一種暈眩的感覺...
好想不用工作, 只專心讀書...
還有兩份功課要在七月尾前交..
好擔心, 不想肥佬..
怎麼辦??? 有誰可以幫我??
真的想找一個補習老師,
可是...
我還是太笨了,
做什麼也不行...
真是廢人一個...

最近, 腦袋總是記不到東西,
就連很簡單, 每一天都會做的事也可以忘記,
忘記吃藥, 忘記工作, 忘記吃飯,
每一件小事情也要靠紙條記下來,
我桌子上, 電話裡全都是不同的提醒,
好怕忘記了某一些事情, 又被人罵...
做錯太多事, 會被人嫌棄啦..

整理電腦, 看到幾年前的照片,
臉好小, 好瘦,
跟媽媽說我變胖了,
她說我的臉還是很小...
我有自知之明, 我知道自己很醜, 很胖...
因為有人每一天也在提醒我很醜...
我會努力變瘦...
已經輕了2磅, 慢慢來, 不要急...
很快, 我就會變得很瘦啦..

剪了頭髮, 齊齊的留海,
還不是很習慣, 不太自然,
頭髮好乾, 也許營養不夠,
看起來總是怪怪的,
找一天拍照讓大家看吧...
如果有人想看...

不知道怎麼啦,
總覺得自己的文章寫起來有一點不同了,
風格不同了, 是什麼原因?
看起來不像我寫的,
是我太累嗎??
還是我真的又發作?
還是早一點睡吧,
明天又是好的一個開始!!!

Nice Song!!!

反正我給什麼都不對
還不夠填飽他的胃
他讓我
覺得自己像個累贅
他懂得要求
卻不懂把握
他似乎什麼都不在乎
對我的付出從不屑一顧
他沒有傷我
只是我自己太軟弱

分與合

人和人之間,
總是糾纏在分和合,
沒有對或錯的因素,
一切只是緣份在作祟!

Psycho!!!

A crazy person won't admit he is crazy!
A Psychopath won't tell you he is having psychology illness!
Right! That's why there are a lot of crazy person in the world.
And they can live so near me!
I am not looking down on them!
They are poor and pity as me!
Just because I am as crazy as they are!
I hate hypocritical person!
I hate acting hypocrite!
When I sad, I will cry!
When I depressed, I will face black!
When I speechless, I will stood!
That's me!
I hate to being fake!
I can't hide my feeling!
I can't pretend I am happy when I deep inside is sad!
I can't smile to you when honestly I want to cry!
I am going crazy!
I am being nuts!
What can I do?
What should I do?
Just pretend nothing? Or fight for it?
Give you some space to solve the problem?
Or just pretend there is no problem?
I have no appetite to eat.
I feel sick, headache so serious.
Everytime when I heard something,
my headache will increase!
I just want to be happy,
that's all!
Stop bothering me!
Stop foolishing me!
Stop everything!
Just give me so fresh air!
Give me a glass of tea,
a chocolate cake,
some blue music,
a comfortable sofa,
then let me relax for 1 hour.
I don't want to become crazy.
Please just let me lay down,
and feel the world.

My office desk!!

Full of documents,
heavy workload,
a tons of things need to do...
sit infront of my desk over 9 hours a day,
sometimes need to attend a 4 hours long meeting.
I think my degrees of eye sight already increase.



But glad that I have 精神食糧,
when everytime I look at those photos on my monitor.
It makes me so awake and sweet.
My lovely cats, my honey,
makes me feel energytic.


Also the straight road photo make me so relax.
I did have some emotional illness,
and I need to relax and think positive.
This is the only method to make me feel happier.
Anyway, I will try to make myself happier.

Yesterday go to Mega Box with mum and my honey,
very warm night.
He is the only boyfriend which will always entertainment my mum.
He love to go out with my mum,
buy her dinner and shopping with her,
while looking at their back when they are chatting,
I feel so glad that they can 相處得這麼融洽!
They laugh and speak loud,
while we are shopping in the furniture shop,
they together discuss the sofa and kitchen setting,
I am really happy with that...
Life so simple, we only need to enjoy it.
I wish that this wonderful moment can last forever.

老公對我好重要!!!!

事情發生在美國的一所大學。
在快下課時, 教授對同學說:我和大家玩遊戲，誰願意配合我一下。
一女生走上台來。
教授說:" 你在黑板上寫下你難以割捨的二十個人的名字。 "
女生照做了。有她的鄰居、朋友、親人等等。
教授說:" 那你除掉一個這裏面你認為最不重要的人。 "
女生除掉了一個她鄰居的名字。
教授又說:" 你再除掉一個。 "
女生又除掉了一個她的同事。
教授再說: " 你再除掉一個。 "
女生又除掉了一個。 ......
最後，黑板上只剩下了三個人，她的父母、丈夫和孩子。
教室非常安靜，同學靜靜的看著教授，感覺這似乎已不再是一個遊戲了。
教授平靜的說: " 再除掉一個。"
女生遲疑著，艱難的做著選擇 ......
她舉起粉筆，除掉了父母的名字。
" 再除掉一個。 "身邊又傳來了教授的聲音。
她驚呆了，巍巍地舉起粉筆慢而堅決的又除掉了兒子的名字。
緊接著，她哇的一聲哭了，樣子非常痛苦。
教授等她平靜了一下，說道: " 和你最親的人應該是你的父母和你的孩子，
因為父母是養育的人，孩子是你親生的，而丈夫是可以重新再尋找的，
為什麼丈夫反倒是你最難割捨的人呢？ "
同學靜靜地看著她，等待著她的回答。
女生平靜而又緩慢地說道: " 隨著時間的推移，父母會先離我而去，
孩子長大成人後肯定也會離我而去，真正陪伴我度過一生的只有我的丈夫


好有感慨的一段話,
如果問我, 我真的不知道怎樣答,
答不出來....
我希望我老公可以陪伴我一生,
不要早過我死去,
因為我希望死前還能感覺到他的體溫!!!

Sick Sick Sick!!!

I am still sick.
Visit doctor twice a week.
Face turn blue.
Look like dying soon.
My family doctor can't tell what's going on.
Headache nonstop for 2 months,
vomit all the time,
no mood to eat,
always feel cold,
fever,
sweating....
What happen to me?
I don't know...
Doctor said maybe I am too stress,
maybe there are a lot of things bothering me,
maybe I have too much worries...
I want to relax, but just can't do it.
Tons of work accumalate on my desk.
I can't see my desk surface now.
Tomorrow is 8th June,
things gonna be changed from this special day.
My english exam is on 9th June,
and I still not yet have time to prepare.
Yes, I am lazy, but I am sick too.
I wish I can solve all the problems.
I wish that nothing gonna harm me again anymore.
I wish I can have a healthy body to enjoy my life.
Although my life so messy,
but I still want it to be great.

There are still have something which can make me happy.
My sweet heart gave me a ring today,
this is not a engagement ring,
but it still have some special meaning for me.

Thanks for take care such a annoying girl.
Thanks for spend so many night to take care a sick girl.
I love you so much!
I will wear this ring all the time!


MY lovely cats stay at my home over 5 years.
I love them too.
Everytime when I am sad,
they will make out a funny pose to make me laugh.
See this angle when she sleep.
So lovely and funny.
HAHAHAHHA!!!
Please don't die so early.
I wish I can die before you!

A very nice song from Michael Jackson

Lyrics~~
Another day has gone, I'm still all alone
How could this be? You're not here with me
You never said good-bye, someone tell me why
Did you have to go, and leave my world so cold?

* Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away?
Something whispers in my ear and says*

**That you are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone **
All alone, why, oh...

Just the other night, I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come, and hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers, your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand, then forever can begin

Oh...whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
Fly...and girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there...

Not alone,
You are not alone, you are not alone...

You just reach for me baby
In the morning in the evening
You're not alone, not alone
You and me, not alone, oh, together, together...