Dying soon!!!

Everyday work like dog,
finish day time marketing work,
still need to back to LKF's work,
help my friend manage his restarurant and bar.
Everyday working like dog,
dying soon......

But busy is not a bad thing,
because I can have no time to be sad,
I can spend all of my time to work work and work.
And sleep on the bus,
you know?
I only have 4-5 hours to sleep everyday,
I can be superwoman very soon.
Sleep less, eat less,
lose 2 lbs already!!
Didn't really have time to eat dinner when in LKF.

Nevermind, only work for partime for 1 week,
then I can study my school and rest more.
And soon will be easter holiday,
planned to go to Macau with my best friends,
I need to enjoy and relax in this special holiday,
the first holiday after my break up.
Maybe I can meet some nice guy.
Thanks God stay with me all the time,
make me brave and clam even I am super sad.

Growing up,
be a maturer me!!!

Three ending of LOVE!

First ending would be getting marry.
After few years of understanding,
communicate, we will all know someone so deep.
Then we will plan to have a family with him,
have his babe, do the housework,
reponsible for all the stuff.
You will be very happy with him,
you will enjoy staying home and cook, and wait him back after work.
This is marriage!

Second, would be break up,
when two persons got together for few years,
but still can't really suit each other,
keep having fight,
keep argue all the time.
Then the only method is too break up,
no matter you still love him or not,
you will still need to leave him,
because you know he will never be the perfect one in your heart,
and he never trying to be the prefect one for you.
When you break up with him,
you know you still love him,
but that's all.
Cause you totally understand,
you and him won't have a perfect future.

The last one would be death.
There are a lot of accidents everyday,
and we can't predict our future.
I saw many news before about someone's husband died in a accident,
and leave 2 young kids.
Very sad story, but happen everyday.
The death really can separate a fortunate family.
The death can apart all the couples.
I knew some people that they can still love their wife even she died already.
They can only love her, and this love can last forever.
But honestly, mostly no one will only love one person for the whole life.
Maybe after few years, they met someone good,
then they fall in love with them, and then start another marriage.
I never apart with my honey because of the death,
but I can feel the pain in the movie.
Break up but not because of love is fading out,
break up not because I don't love you anymore,
just because my end of day.
Really sad.

But really, the ending of love really only have 3 ways,
Break up, Marry, Death.
If you can't marry to someone, then better break up and find another one,
don't wait until he die, then you regret you didn't find your true love.

I am back!!

Didn't really online for few days,
not because I am sad on anyone or anything,
just because I want to be alone,
want to be quiet,
want to enjoy this peaceful moment.

Broke up few days before,
still not yet recover from the hurts he gave me,
but I know I will be fine,
and I am going to be better,
I won't sad or cry for him anymore,
because he's just not worth to make me down,
I won't love anyone who doesn't love me.
Love is complicated, but it also can be simple.

My English exam result cames out,
Oh my god, I thought my result would be fucking bad,
but thank god! I have 775/990.


Isn't it so good? Not bad result!
Thank God, I need to work hard on my next Exam.

Thanks Suyi TALKED to me so much when I am sad.
Thanks Janet introduced those useless guys to me to make me clear about
what kind of guy I am lookging for.
Thanks Donny bought me lunch when I am hungry.
Thanks Ben brought back your dog to let me take care of it.
Thanks Mr. Pang suddely gave me pocket money so that I can cover my credit card.
Thanks Mum made me nice meals when I am home.
Thanks my lovely cats sticked to me when I am alone.
Thanks God stayed beside me when I am weak and depressed.
Thanks everyone leave comments here.
Thanks M showed me how shit a asshole can be when you not even return money to a girl.
Thanks B not dare to break up with me when you no more love me,
so that I can dump you first.
Thanks K showed me when you have no interest with someone,
you won't even spend a second to say HI when online.
Thanks another M always let me temper on you. ( sorry )
Thanks everyone which did something or nothing within this moody period.

I will be fine, I know I will.
I am going to online again,
I will be stronger, and not let those assholes stand closer to me.
God will protect me, so as you all.
Thanks again for anyone cheer me up in this moment.
Thanks for all the pray that you guys did.

Sometime I know love is such a horrible things,
I want to avoid it, escape from it.
But I know I can't,
because I know I need love.
But anyway, still have one week,
my University school life will begins.
I no need to worry about my relationship with anyone now,
so I can have a lot of time to study.
People said studying online will be so difficult.
I have no confidence too.
But nevermind, I have time,
I will work hard!

Right now, I want to love myself more.
Make myself more and more pretty.
HAHAHAH!!!
Reborn life, here I am!!!

劉若英~~我等你

Book returned!!

Finally, I got back my book.
I borrowed it to my artist friend over 2 years,
and yesterday she finally return me.
I not yet finish this book,
only read for 2 chapters then I let her took it away.

" He's just not that into you! "
What a meaningful book name!
I really want to know are you into me,
or I am just wasting my time on useless person.



The book becomes so dirty,
yellow and old.
It becomes a second hand book for me.
Although I am the one who bought it first.
Anyway, I think I will use this week to finish this book.
I want to finish it before my school start!
for the rest few days,
I think I will avoid online,
just want to be quite,
no MSN, no online, no TV, no games,
stay in the bed, sleep and read.
I want to make things clear.
I want to be alone.

Friends, don't be worry,
I am ok, I just want to have a short holiday after I figure out the things.
I just want to rest a few days after this freaking sad time.
God will always beside me,
I won't be a whole life loser.
I will be good, I will be very good!

劉若英~~一輩子的孤單

陳慧琳~~你有事瞞住我

Still sick!

Too cold in the office,
both the climate and also the people.
Earn back little from stock.
Still not yet find the right job.
Things can't said changing better,
but at least not that shit.
I wish someone take care me when I am sick,
just a phone call already better than nothing.

Didn't back church this sunday,
feel so sad, and empty.
Feel like missing something.
Sad!! I really wish that I can back to church on sunday again.
I wish God can always by myside.

People around me are too happy and fortune,
makes me feel I am the poorest one.
People around me have high salary works,
no need t worry about money.
People around me have a honey,
can hug someone to sleep when lonely.
People around me have friend accompany them,
and no need to stay home and eat instant noodle.

I have friend, but I don't have money go out with them.
I have work, but not a comfortable environment.
I have family, but not much time can spend with them.
I have honey, but never show up infront of me.

Am I poor?? Yes I think so in some way.
But I still know I am already better than many people.
At least I have God in my heart.
Although I can't back to church all the time,
but I still can talk with God when I need.
I can pray to him, I can ask for help from him.

God won't make me rich, but I will have enough money to alive.
God won't give me honey, but he will send someone I need.
God won't give me 48 hours a day, but he will help me manage things.
Yes, God always by myside.
And he won't leave me alone when I need him.

Gloomy Sunday

Sick in the office, finish everything I can do.
Sat down and watched a movie.
Don't know when I install in my pc.
But very romantic movie.

~~ Gloomy Sunday ~~
HAHAH!! Today is Sunday,
and I watched this movie,
is it a signal for me?

The story is about A women bewteen three men,
A deadly song in a Murderous Era!
Winner of 6 films Award!!

A relationship bewteen 2 men and 1 woman,
they love each other,
no one want to quit.
Those 2 men know each other.
The woman don't know how to choose,
she love both, at last, 3 people admit a triangle relationship.
The pianist one written a song for her,
but over 157 people suicide after listening to this music.
Is it a curise? A sad song with a sad relationship.

A new chaser jealous their love life,
he destroy it, and made her lost both of them at the end.
The only thing she have is the song with lryics.

Sometimes love is like that shit,
hard to chose,
hard to move on,
and people will jealous on what you have,
and keep on destory it.









Nice picture, nice story,
nice clothes, nice character,
Not handsome, but very smooth and comfortable.

Nice Movie!!

I am sick! Very Sick!!

Maybe I played too much these few days.
Not enough sleep.
Wear less.
Get cold.
Now, so exhausted.
No energy,
and today I still need to work.
Yes, from this week,
I need to work on Sunday.
The day Jesus want us rest and only go to church.
But this company not allow.
I have no method to challenge them.
I just can listen and obey.

Very sick now.
And people still keep ask me question.
Force me to admit something not real!
So cold here, I wear a lot.
Hands freeze.... Headache....
I feel so faint...
Ate some congee this morning,
Thanks my colleague bought for me.
I sat in the empty office whole morning.
Looked at the monitor with blank brain.
Type bull shit, and watch vcd.
I don't want to being so boring here.
But I really have nothing to do.
Sunday, all companys are day off.
What my boss want me to do on this holiday?

I have no energy to inforce anyone.
I want to rest, I want to stop think about anything.
I just want to back home and have a good sleep.
Do nothing, think nothing,
please don't ask me question now.
I really have no energy to answer.

Forgive me Jesus, I wish I really can back church,
but someone just not allow me to contact you.
Please forgive them too,
cause they don't know what they are doing.

No eating!! No drinking!!

Rules are made because we need to obey!
Rules are written to ask us follow!
How come still have people want to break the rule?
You think you can challenge it??

This morning I went to the English Exam,
I saw a moronic ass.
He sat beside me, around 45 years old.
Round body! Big head!!
A normal mid-40 guy!

Before the Exam start, he suddenly took out a bottle of water.
Put in on the desk, then the examinator asked him put it into the bag.
Then he spoke so loud!
" The other classmate next room also put water on the desk.
ANd the one selling water in this school said it is allow.
So why I can't drink during the exam? "
The examinatior speechless. She turned around and walk out the classroom.
I looked at that asshole's face. He was smiling.
He was so happy because he thought he win.

I looked at the blackboard. There were some paper with rules.
A damn big words written " No eating and Drink during the examination! "
Open your eyes and read the rules.
You don't know english then don't come to the class.
Don't understand what is this mean??
Let me explain to you.
It say you are not allowed to eat and drink before you leave this room.
How come you still think you are right.

Then after 30 second, that exmainator back.
And she spoke so loud.
" The director of this school said NO EATING AND DRINKING IS ALLOWED !!
So you can put it on your desk, but NO DRINK!! "
The fat ass face black. HAHAH, funny!!
You worth it!!!

But I don't know how come people so stupid.
When the exmainator turned around,
that guy open the bottle and drink 1 mouth.
HHAHAHA, He want to show even others not let him drink,
he still can drink??
I really wish to take his photo and show you guys.
But God won't allow me to do this!

Anyway, I just wonder,
when we are still in school,
such as primary school,
or secondary school,
is there anyone tried to drink and eat when doing exam?
Did you tried that before?
I think NO ONE!!!
Then means what??
You are not hungry? Not thirsty?
I think because we have knowledge to understand,
there were some invisible rules we should follow.
Even it didn't written infront of us.
So this fat ass come from MARS??
He don't know The Earth have rules?
He don't know we must follow the rules??

It is really funny to meet such a weird old guy in this weird morning.

I played Wii for whole night,
3 hours boxing.
My arms so strong now.
I can hit the elephant!!
HAHAHAH!!!
K.O.

飛輪海~~出口

Tired Tired Tired!!!

Not enough sleep.
Only 4 hours everyday.
Too stress.
Too much troubles.
Things still not yet clear.
Mood still not yet better.
Problems still annoying me.
People around still stupid.
News are still boring.
Everything just seems not so smooth.
But...
Life must move on.
I want to watch a movie.
I want to sleep whole day long.
I want to rest.
I want to have a run.
I want to go to the Park.
Stress, Tired, Moody...
Thanks God still beside me.
Thanks my lucky star didn't temper these few days.
People I am waiting still don't understand what I want.
Pray to God.
Ask for more energy.
Ask for more luck.
Ask for wisdom.
JINX~~ Leave Me Alone!!

I am really exhausted.....
I want a hug...
A tight tight hug...

What do you think?

My friend was in this situtation.
She just changed to a new company,
high salary for let say $40,000.
I.T. programmer.
Big brand company.
Working hour from 08:30- 17:30
No internet.
No MSN.
Provided uniform.
Cheap cantan for lunch.
10:30, 15:30 two tea time.
What do you think about this job?

For me, no internet is ok.
But it is a Programmer job.
How can you work without internet?
You can't blog when work,
you can't do any personal things when work.
Will you still stay for this job?

My friend was considering to quit.
She asked my opinion.
Honestly, have such high salary, and can learn a lot of things,
I really don't care I can't do my personal things when work.
And I am working, if I want to do my personal things then I should be BOSS.
No time to sleep?
Yeah! It is a big problem.
I need to wake up around 05:30,
because I need to use 2 hours to bath, make up, dress up.
And I need to study at home.
But life is like that,
everyone if they work and study at the same time,
then they need to sleep less.
It is common sense.
So, what else?
Boring because nothing to do in the office?
OK, I already used to it,
I sat in the office over 3 months,
and I have nothing much to do.
And not always can online.
But I am still here.

SO what do you think about this job?
You perfer a high salary work which you can only work in the working hour,
sleep less because you still need to study after home,
no time go out have fun?
Or you perfer less salary, you can do anything because nothing do in the office,
nothing you can learn from the job,
have a lot of time for you to study when work,
and you can blog, msn, read books when work,
then home you can sleep more,
but no more money to let you buy clothes,
no more money for you to study university.
WHich one you perfer??

I don't know, is a really hard decision.
But I think I perfer the no internet job.
Cause I think earn more and early retire is my goal.
I can sleep less because I am still young,
but I don't want to keep working until 50,
because I need to pay for my house.
How about you?

Praying and Praying!!!

Oh Father,
People are keep anooying me, they are trying so hard to make me angry.
They keep doing something to threat me.
Father, I am so weak, I can't resist them.
They are so strong, too powerful.
I need to solve a lot of problems everyday.
Solve one, another one come,
solve one another come again.
Father, what should I do?
Please show me the path I should follow.
Please give me wisdom to face those devil.
Please use your big hand to help me out of those black hole.

五月天~~倔強

The first gift I bought myself.

After recieve those big money,
I use it to buy my first gift after CNY.
A brand new tooth brush.
Am I funny?
Why not buy the Wii?
Why not buy clothes or shoes??
Why buy a tooth brush?

I don't know.
I just want to buy something cheap,
but new!
To have a new life,
beautiful teeth makes me happy!

And it is my favourite colour~~ PINK!!
Only cost $15.9
Super worth!!!
Thanks God.
Thanks for bring me to buy this lovely toothbrush!

Is March!! Red Packet Opening Day!! ( Picture updated )

Yeah!! Last night I took out all the red packets I earned from this CNY!
Oh my god!!! This year I earned 33 pieces.
And do you know how much is it??
$2660!!!!


Jesus!!!
Already 4 years!!!
The last time I earned over $1500 was 4 years ago.
Thanks jesus, you let me have more pocket money to buy healthy food!

Inside these 33 packets,
have 2 very special.
One was the pastor of my church gave me,
$20 with a greeting card!
I love the words on the card!!
Thanks so much!


The other one was $50 RMB.
Money from China.
Yes I know now RMB is higher than HKG.
But how can I use it?
I don't even have chance back China.
And I don't think I can ask the bank to translate only $50.
Must be need high service charge.
Jesus Christ, please send someone to replace my $50 RMB.
I don't know who gave me that.
But please don't let me know.

Maybe later today upload pic to let you guys look look.
Coz I don't have much time to redo the pic

A nice sentences from Bible.

This morning when I reading the Bible,
I found that maybe God is talking to me.
He knew that I have some problem with my job,
and he knew that I have many other problems too.

When I read the article today,
I found that it seems have something telling me.

" 無論何時你們看見你們自己被各樣試煉圍困了,
都要以為大喜樂;
因為知道你們的信心經過試煉, 就生忍耐. (雅一章二至三節 )
神常圍困祂自己的女兒, 為著要訓練他們;
可是人總錯看祂的圍困, 誤會祂的作為.
約伯就是這樣, 他說: " 人的道路既然遮隱,
神又把他四面圍困, 為何還有光賜弓中的他呢? " ( 伯三章二十三節 )
阿! 神的兒女們! 試煉雖然圍困我們,
仍有許多隙縫可以透進光來的.
荊棘不會來刺你, 除非你靠著他.
並且親朋的棄絕, 物質的缺乏,
以及那些傷你的話語, 使你痛心的信札, 神都知道.
如果你敢完全信靠神, 神必與你表同情,
並且負你一切的責任. "

Isn't it a nice sentence?
Is God want me to give up this damn shit work,
and find a new one which not stop me back church at Sunday?
I want to believe in God,
but my confindence still not enough strong.
I'm afraid can't find a better job within this 2 months.
I'm afraid not have enough money to fed my family.
I'm afraid can't pay the school fee.
But if I sty in this shit company,
I can't back church on Sunday,
I can't back the church's course on Sunday,
I can't attend my University tutorial class sometimes,
people will keep on bull shit to me,
they will keep complain me,
they will keep on annoying me.
Although seems like I quit the job,
the problem will be bigger,
coz people can't live without money.
But I really don't want to less my chance back to church.

God please show me the path I should walk!
I am too stupid and no confindence.
Please give me wisdom and brave!!

Another temptation!

Someone want to make me angry,
they keep gave me shit,
kept make me angry!
But I won't let you succeed.
You want to make me can't back church,
then I will fight with you.
How can you stop me backing church,
how much I believe in God?
How much I want to back church?
How many days I spend in church?
Do you understand?
I really don't want to give up my chance to listen God's words,
and just because I want to get the salary from you.
I don't want to work on Sunday,
because God said Sunday we can't work,
we should be rest and back church only!
I won't give up my sunday!
Anyway, I know devil is trying to make me leave God.
But I won't , I will try to find a method to fight you back!

I won't scare you.
If you must force me work on Sunday,
I will quit, because God is bigger than you,
bigger than money.
Although I need to think about my family,
although I need to afraid of no money to eat and pay school fee.
But no method, I just don't want to make God disappointed to me.
Money I can earn anytime.
But God won't always wait me believe him!