李聖傑~~最近, 蔡依林~~假裝

李聖傑~~最近



蔡依林~~假裝

Yeah!! Birthday celebration 7th episode!!!

HOHOHOH,
Although my birthday was already past,
but thank god,
I still have many friends celebrate with me.
Last few days, I met my old old friends,
Penny, Harry, Micheal, Stephen...
Yeah!! They bought me a nice ShangHai dinner.

And I got a lot of nice gift!
Thanks you guy!!
Really long long time didn't talk with you..
After I move back to my mum's place,
really didn't come out with you...
I miss you guys soooo much!!
Too bad that Timothy can't come.
I wish you can join us next time!

Golden Pig gift that Stephen gave me!
Thanks!!

HAHAHAH!!! Ate so full!!! I am Fat ass!!

Glad that my face not so round!
But I think I really need to on diet!
I am 104lbs now!!

Sweet Sweet Penny, nice girl.
Keep in touch!!!

Here are the food we've ordered.
Nice???

砂鍋雲吞雞


蒜泥豆苗, 小籠包, 火腿蔥花卷


甜品~~ 高力豆沙球, 豆沙窩餅

Thanks everyone for gave me such a wondeful night.
I am looking forward to meet you all next time!
let's play crazy!!

What happen??

I just want to have a reason,
why things suddenly turn down??
I did nothing,
why must the thing changed so bad??
Can someone tell me what happen?
I set a deadline,
but the closer to the deadline,
the more sad I am...
I am totally collapse now...
I am afraid I must be give up something after deadline,
I really don't want to have that ending.
I tried so hard to be brave,
and pretend I am happy..
But I can't stop my tears.
What should I do??
Should I cancel the deadline>?
Should I clear the things right now?
What should I do??

It is time to make things clear...

I love to stand under the sun when in Winter's morning,
the warm temperture cover my whole body,
I can feel how warm it is..
The sun's not so big,
but is already enough to make me out of cold.
Yes, I need something warm in the Winter.

These two days, I through a lot of things,
maybe it is time for me to set a deadline.
A deadline that I should make all things settle.
A deadline that I should give up something which it is not belongs to me.
I think three days is the limited.
I don't have much patient to wait,
I hate the feeling when waiting something happen.
It is really meaningless if I am the only one who care the thing.
I tried so hard to be good girl,
I tried so hard to be patient.
But it seems that nothings I can control.

Today is the second day already,
and I think if things didn't get better until deadline,
I think I really should give up,
and no more depress for it.
I still have a lot of things can make me happy,
I have my healthy family make dinner for me,
I have my lovely cat hug me sleep,
I have friends chat with me when I need,
I have work and study to busy with,
I have healthy body to feel the warm of sun,
I have friend to watch movie with me,
I have books to read,
I have God in my heart,
I have my goals, my dreams, and my targets...
I have a lot of things to make myself happy,
I shouldn't sad about only one things,
and let it spoil my whole day's mood.

I already cried a lot of because of this shit,
is already enough.
Life is short, I don't want to be still sad if I die in the next minute.
If I really not desire to have this,
then why I still tried so hard to force this thing belongs to me??
If something need to go, and avoid me,
then why I can't just let it go??
I at least have some good memory with this,
no one can steal my memory,
no one can do that on me...

One day, when I really want to forget something,
I think I can forget, time always can make things fade out...

Suddenly I feel moody again...

Is it winter will make people easily moody?
I through I am ok already,
but no... I am still like that!
Still depressed.
Still have 30 minutes to leave,
I've got a pen, some paper,
I kept drawing.

I drew a lot of pictues,
but most of them are girls under the wind,
closed eyes, messy hair...
some tears dropping down...
Is it the mirror of me?

I also drew a nice church,
maybe right now I really need something to protect me,
let me stay and rest..
Let me hide myself.

I also drew a heart,
a heart which tied up,
so tight so tight,
seems it soon will be explore...
so painful...
bleeding..
can't breath...
What is that mean??

What a bad news....

Is she pretty?? Is she cute??
It is very pity for the bad news happen on her.
She is a new star, a actress in Taiwan.
28 years old. Still young, cute, lovely and attractive!
She is nice, pure and still haev a long long way can go...
But a car accident took her life in 44 hours....
Her friends all rush to the hospital after she in coma.
I feel hurt too because it is so waste.
28 years old...I can't believe that...

Life is short, we can't predict our future,
even the fortune teller also can't tell us when will be our ending.
Accident can happen anywhere, anytime, any reason.
I can't avoid accident even I just stay at home.
I really don't want to regret when I die.
I still have many thing need to do, and want to do..
I don't want to suddenly lose my life, and all my unfinished goals.
What should I do now?
Should I say I love you to anyone when I still alive?
Should I spend all my money to play to enjoy life?
Should I stop studying, and use all of my time with family?
Should I stop loving anyone and stop all friendship with them?

I don't really want anyone cry for me if I suddenly gone.
I don't want to know how sad they are.
I want them to be happy even I won't be here anymore.
But I also want to keep the relationship with them when I still alive.
What should I do?
I really afraid of death. It is horrible if I can't do anything anymore.
If I can't breath any fresh air,
can't see how beautiful the sky is,
can't feel the warm wind,
can't talk to anyone,
can't listen to anyone....
People told me that Heaven is wonderful,
but what if I can't go to Heaven?
What if I need to go to the Hell..

I treasure what I have now,
and I want to be happy even the next minutes I died.
I want to have a wonderful thing before I died.
I don't want to bring any sad things, sad memory to my grave.
Can I??
Am I desire?
Can you make me happy until I die one day?
Can you no more argue with me until I gone?
Can you just keep peaceful with me??
Just pretend the next minute I will be forever gone,
please don't make me down and sad all the time!
Please, all of my friend, treasure me as much as I treasure you.

I love you~~ my friends, my family, my lover, for all that I known...
I love you!!!

I love my cats!!

Yes! I love my cats, they are so lovely and cute.
And I love to sleep with them too.
But too bad, only Mr. Ball will sleep with me sometimes.
He so sticky, he love to hold my arm to sleep.

He is a boy, but he just like a little kid love to stick to his mum.
He will just lay down on my arm,
sleep on my breast!
HAHAHAH, funny cat!
I love him so much, I can't stand if he leave me.
Mr. Ball you need to be strong,
and don't get sick, I will cry like dying if you go to heaven!
I love you!!!

Oh last few days, I went to Happy Valley.
A anniversary dinner of VIVIENNE WESTWOOD.
It was so excited. That night have horse racing.
This is the first time I go into th horse race club when have race.
A lot of people around. Very noisy.
Everyone are so concenrated to gambling.
I didn't buy any horse that night,
becasue I really don't have any luck on gambling.

I really don't like horse racing,
but it seems to be a culture of HK.

The food not really good.
Just a normal buffet. Normal food.
But very interesting to drank wine and look at those people.
It was cold outside. But I still stand at the outdoor.
I can heard those screaming and shouting.
They are all concenrated to the race!

I really not enjoy this, I prefer buying stock!
Anyway, it was a great experience for me!

Really not have enough time...

I have a lot of things need to do,
but it seems that I am so busy everyday.
I need to work for 9 hours,
2 hours for transportation,
2 hours for bath and make up,
I only leave 11 hours leave to sleep, study, eat and shit!
How can I manage all of that?
Really want to cry sometime,
I have a lot of problems behide me,
and no one I can tell,
no one I can share,
of coz I've got friend to talk with me,
but I know they can't help me,
and they have their problems too.
Really stress for what I am facing now.
But...
No method, I still need to face it,
I need to be strong,
I need to solve all the problem,
I need to make my mother happy.

Anyway, I just finish a new birthday cake yesterday,
a cake that my mobile's supplier gave me!
What a delicious cake!!

The box are amazing, very beautiful.

I love chocolate!
This cake cost $260....
I can't believe that such a small cake cost so much!

Too bad that I need to keep fit,
so I need to share my cake with my family,
but of coz I love to do this.
Anyway, the cake was great!
Thanks COVA!! Thanks Smartone!!

I am reading a psycho book!!!

Just find out a passage quite good,
want to share here.
But it is in chinese words.
So maybe better to understand what is the meaning!!

~~~~
我怎樣才能把他人作為達到目的的手段呢?
我怎樣才能通過將他人看作目的, 以表示對他人的尊重呢??
在第一種情況下, 我可以把他人看作環境鏈條的一個環節,
是我必須應付的一個環節.
在第二種情況下, 我應當盡力去理解他人.
唯有通過對鄰人產生興趣, 而不必真的告訴他,
唯有通過思考這個人, 理解他的工作, 與他的命運產生共鳴,
以及設法去理解他, 才能做到真正地去尊重鄰人.
唯有克服自身的苦惱, 成為無私的人,
唯有忘記和他人之間的那些小口角,
唯有能夠克制自己的不耐煩, 努力去理解他人,
才說得上是真正地與鄰人亳無利害計較.
一個人能夠遵循道德原則行事,
是因為他已經戰勝了那個阻礙他去理解鄰人的最大強敵~~自私.
~~~~

NICE??? I believe that too,
sometimes when I know someone is better than me,
I will jealous, and can't believe what she have now.
This is selfish! This is jealous!
This is why I can't closer with her,
or why we so easy have agrue...
All of these because I am selfish and jealous her.
But what should I do??
Respect...I thought that if I no hurt people and being polite is already respect.
But can I be more patient?
Can I try to understand her?
Can I no compare with her?
Can I forget the fight with her before?
I don't know, books didn't teach me how to do!
HAHAAH!!!

Again~~ HELLO KITTY!!!

Yes, I like Hello Kitty!
but come on, I am not a kid anymore!
Please don't buy Hello Kitty for me anymore!
I have over 50 Hello Kitty dolls,
and over at least 100 products of this!
I really don't haev any space to store the NEW STUFF!!!
So please, if you want to buy me something,
think of something useful,
such as accessories, books, clothes,
or even tooth paste also ok!
At least I can use it!!!

My fans ~~ FION, a 14 years old girl brough me this!


Yes, the dirty pink one!
You know? The tag is still here,
but I really don't understand why is it so dirty?
A big black and yellow dirt at the back.
Bited by a dog??
I don't know, but I still put it on my bed.
As a table for my notebook,
when I study on my comfortable bed!

Alright, another one, my best friend~~ Janet gave me!


A GREEN HELLO KITTY!!
What a funny colour! HAHAH!!
But I really no more space to store it!
So I will keep the bag, and maybe put it on the cupboard!

Anyway, although those dolls is not realyl suitable for me!
But I still treasure it so much!
Thanks!!!

Oh, one of my friend just back from HAWAII.
I've never been to there. How much I wish I can go once!
He brough me this as a gift!!!


Nice??? I like pink colour!
This is useful gift, at least I can wear it to match my clothes!
Oh, but one bad point,
it is very difficult to take off.
Is he want to me put on it whole life??
I need someone to put in on and take it off for me!
What a joke!!! But Thanks again!

Also got a birthday greetcard from someone!
Very beautiful card!!

And with many words written on it!!
HAHAH@!! I spend many time to read it clear!
You know my english not very very good!
And I am afraid misunderstand the real meaning!

See?? Those small snake words...
Make me so faint!! How can she write in such a small font??
Just like her blog!!!!

Oh, and I got a gift from my Canada's friend.
She study there many years ago.
This time, she back Hong Kong and visit her great boyfriend.
She brough me a strange gift from JAPAN!!


CHOPSTICKS!!!!
HAHAHAH, Funny right???
A pair of chopsticks from Japan!!
really unforgettable gift!

It seems that I really should learn to be alone...

I kept wake up from bad dream,
kept Insomina everynight.
What's happening on me?
I totally reluctant to be alone,
but what else I can choose?
Force someone to meet me?
Froce someone to talk with me?
I slept 2-3 hours everyday,
yes, I am exhausted, but I don't feel sleepy.
I tried to have more tolerance to wait for.
I tried to pretend I am happy.
But I can feel that I am becoming reserved...
Keep silent all the time!!!

Sometimes, I feel really confused.
I don't like people being fake, but I seems being fake all the time.
I can smile anytime, even I am terrible sad at that moment.
I can always have a big smile in the photo,even I am taking photo with someone I hate!
I can always pretend so enthusiastic.
I can also pretend so satisified with everything.
But I just feel I am totally social isolation.

There are a lot of thing discourage me.
I started under control...
I can't control my mind, my feeling, my emotion,
Feel like I am crazy.
What the hell is going on???
Can anyone interpret to me?

I am so moody today...

I don't know why!!!
Maybe the bad dream last night,
maybe the client's complain today,
maybe the conversation with someone today,
maybe insomnia last night,
I don't know...
I just feel today, I whole day in bad mood!!

I feel so depress with everything,
I don't want to hear anything about someone's boyfriend,
I don't want to know how sweet they are,
I just feel so annoying when I heard the word of " boyfriend "..

I don't want to tempering on anyone,
but I just feel so furious about myself...
Seems like I am a sore loser all the time..
I don't even desire anything good...
and seems like I just keep worse and worse,
I am falling down...

Steven Lim said that before,
" A loser will always be a loser! ".
Same as me!!!
I can't change my life to be better,
even I try so hard to control my temper,
even I try to think positive,
even I still giving hope to anyone,
but it seems good thing never happens on me...

maybe I should used to live alone,
used to live without Boyfriend,
used to live only with my cats until die...

Yeah!! I am just a loser..

Why there are such a asshole in this world??

I said that I don't mind anyone chase me before.
If you think you have this talent,
just go ahead.
Don't care about the result!
If you want to cahse, then come on!!
I won't eat you anyway!
But how can someone so fucking idiot??
How can he keep black face to you when you not accept him?
Seems like I just murdered your family!!
OH MY GOD!!!
Is you got not enough talent to chase me!
But not my fault to not accept you!!
Not even be a gentleman, what a pity!!
I am already so good temper right now,
if you know me earlier,
I won't even care about your feeling!
I will just give u shit back!!
Don't pretend you are so cool infront of me,
you are ZERO to me!!
I just want to throw out when I look at you!
BASTARD!!!
You think you are so handsome??
You think you earn $60,000 each month so pround?
You think fireman is a god damn great job??
Yes, I don't mind if you notice that I am talking about you!
And I don't even care will you read my blog.
None of my business!!
Don't think is my lost because I don't be your girlfriend.
I am so glad that I didn't chose such a asshole like you!

If you don't satisified me, then don't come to my office when I am working!
You knew I didn't eat anything for the whole day,
and you don't even bother to buy me a string of fishball!!
sat infront of me with your black face!!
What the hell do you want??
Did I step on your tail??
Not even buy me fishball, but ask me buy you drinks,
what the hell you are???
Are you a man???

Oh my god, I really disappointed with this bastard.
How can someone be so shit???
While I am talking with Brenda,
you keep saying words with bone to me,
come on, are you still kid???
Of coz there are reasons why I didn't accept you!!
you treat girl like this, you are really an asshole!!
Thank God for letting me see you real face!!
And thanks for not let me accept you.
I really need to pray and thank god!!

And for this annoying man!!
You know?? I really afraid will hurt you before,
so I never tell you the truth that I won't accept you.
But now, I think it is useless to say anything to you!
There is no reason for me to talk to you anymore!
I won't call you, and please don't call me!!
I can pretend I never knew you!!
I won't hate you, because God ask us not to hate anyone,
I will forgive you, and what you have done on me!

Anyway, I still thank you for coming my birthday,
and gave me those useless gift!
I will put in on my yahoo bidding,
I don't want to wasting my space!!

Shit, you moronic ass,
you really make me furious!!!
I got to go to pray!!!

What will you do if someone you dislike chasing you?

I read Wendy's blog, she said she never let those kind of boys
she dislike to chase her,
she will be so tough to let them know she had no interest on them.
She don't mind to show them how bitchy she is,
she don't mind acting like a asshole to them,
she will be only a girl infront of his boyfriend.

Yeah!! I was so apperciate for what she did,
but it is too difficult for me to do,
I don't want to hurt someone.
I know that you need a lot of brave to express your feeling.
I afraid to hurt them, I afraid to lose such a friend.
But they will still keep believe that they hae chance,
and someone will think I am already his girlfriend,
or someone will think that I haev no reason to reject him.

I really want to tell him that I don't love him.
Now I won't, and forever too!
But I really don't want to misunderstand him.
Really afraid to lose his as a friend.
I don't know...
it just so easy for me to attract different kind of boys around me,
but none of them are my cup of tea.
Thank god that they are not psycho,
I scare of those who will follow me home,
keep calling me, I scare of these!!

Really wondering is there any method which can avoid attracting wrong person?
I really want to attract those I like,but not those I dislike.
HAHAH!! What a stupid question,
I don't think will have this solution...

MY mum's cooks always perfect!!

Tonight I arranged to dinner with my family.
But once when I just step in the house,
my mum started to complain about my sister,
and she want to throw my cats out of the house,
because my sister refused to take care of them!!
I just stepped in the house mum,
you already gave me a big problem to solve...

Of cause, I didn't solve the problem at that moment,
before I am a Christian, I will stand at my mum's side,
and scold my sister with mum.
But now I just want to be calm down,
and find a method which will make both of them satisfy.
I use my dinner time to think what should I do,
how to talk with my sister...
Oh!! people who don't know my sister will think it is a easy job.
But NO!!! My sister is so "amazing",
I feel so difficult to talk with her..
Anyway, at last, I still solved it.
See?? I did it!!!

Tonight, mum cooks a lot of food for me,
she did what I wrote to her before.
I am so happy. I love my mum's dishes.

Oh!! yeah!! This morning when I went to work.
I see a groom came and pick up his bride!!
There are really many people getting marry this year!!
But why need to show to me??
A lof of my friend getting marry, engage, or even have babe,
now, those people I don't know also showing me how happy they are!!
GOD!!! Are you kidding me??
Or you want to test me>??
Why you must let me see these??
I really can't find any boyfriend which want to marry me!!
Please don't make me jealous on them anymore!!






I grow up a year again, and I think I should do something good!!
Every year, I will went to donate my blood.
At least once a year, why??
Because I don't haev many money to donate,
I don't have time to be a volunteer,
that's why I can only chose this direct method~~ Donate Blood!
I felt so guilty because I didn't go there much last year,
and when I saw their are wanted some blood A and O people to donate,
I am glad that I still not yet forgot what I need to do!
My health not really good, but thank god,
I still can pass the donation test!
I scare of niddles, not really scare, but I little bit afraid of it.
When I was younger, I need to insert an anaesthetic,
then donate blood. But now I am big girl.
So today I just directly doate,
I still didn't look at the niddle,
but that pain.... not so painful,
but it makes me can feel how the niddle insert inside my blood vessel!!
This is not the first time, so I know the tips to donate,
people need 30 mins to donate a pack of blood,
but I just need 10 mins!!
HAHAHAH!! so fast!!
Too bad that I can't take a picture with my bloody pack!!

Anyway, if you are free,
please do something good for people.
Go to donate your blood, it is healthy for you,
and also can help others.
Just few mins, little pain,
then what that small pack of blood,
can already help them!!

The first day of my 25th soon pass...

I did slept a lot, but I still feel so tired,
I slept on the bus this morning.
When I back to office,
I keep on filling some form of the university,
times go so fast!!
Today I met my little fans,
she is only F.1, I think around 14.
So young girl, I feel sad when saw her!!

Tea with her, and she buy me a Hello Kitty doll!!
She said I can hug it to sleep.
But the dirty pink colour makes me feel so dirty,
I don't know is it my eyes have problem.
Just feel it is so dirty!
But anyway, I still thx her.

After work, no one ask me out,
so I just back to church,
I wish that tonight I can celebrate with Jesus.
At last everyone in the church knew is my birthday,
they sang birthday song to me,
if you need me to count how many people sang for me this year,
or how many people say happy birthday to me,
I think it is really difficult for me.
I think it is the most I never have.

Tomorrow is my family turn,
and a few more dinner next week with friends.
This year I didn't felt fucking drunk too much!
But I really haev a lot of friend celebrate with me!!
Thank God!! I really feel so hapyp this year!!

02:46 am Yes...He called!!!

At last, he did called me,
although I need to remind him today is my birthday!
But better than none!!
I shouldn't ask for too much!!

What a peaceful birthday,
so quite, so normal as usual..
Although few days before I was damn crazy,
but still haev many people so curious that,
why I will be home so early at this special moment!!
No method buddy, I have to work tomorrow,
and beside that, no one ask me out,
and no one I want to go out with!!

Yeah!! Tomorrow I will be celebrate with my family,
then, I think my marathon celebration will be the end!!
Gift....
I think already collected all....
I think....

Birthday 6th episode!!

18th Jan, what a special day!!
Of cause I need to celebrate with my best friend~~ Janet!!
This time she brought his boyfriend together.
Looked at them, I feel so jealous,
when I saw them having some little fight...
Why no one do that to me when my birthday??
But, no method, I still happy for that she found someone..

This night, she brought me to a Italy restarurant,
in the Tst, called " Munch ".
Food not bad, you can try this later.

We ate so full,and then we walked to the Ocean terminal,
poor me, keep walking behide them,
and they just acted so sweet infront of me,
I really want to cry, they are so bad!!

I am the birthday girl,
but only Janet is keep shopping whole night.
She buy a pair of new shoes,
I wish I can buy soemthing too,
but I need to save money for the school fee!!

Then we sat down in Dan Ryan,
here have birthday song service,
I was wondering is it have someone playing the music.
But sorry, no music,
only those not professional waiter and waitress,
clap their hands and sang for me....
And because they are not professional,
the birthday song so ugly to hear!!!

I ate a lot in the dinner,
but Janet want to eat again.
She ordered 2 onion soups,
and a piece of chocolate cake.
I can felt that my stomach going to explode.
But anyway, the cake is great,
those warm chocolate come out from the cake,
makes me feel a little bit warm in this no honey's birthday!

I don't know why, but I never celebrate my birthday with honey!
I always broke up with them before my birthday,
or they are too busy to celebrate with me,
I really really wish that I can french kiss my boyfriend,
after blowing out the candles,
but too bad, I still don't have the chance.

Man give me a necklace of cross,
he wish that when I pray to god, I can use it!
Janet buy me a Chrisian Dior necklace,
I like this, but feel not so useful for me,
I don't really like something which so tight to my neck,
feel can't breath, maybe I need to find somewhere else to put on that!

Anyway, thc for everyone celebrate with me this year!
I won't forget that!!

Birthday 5th episode!!

WOW!!! Blog a lot at the same time!!!

So now, you guys will know that my birthday are very great!
Celebrate everyday, ate a lot of cakes,
this week I realy ate too much,
I think I need to be on diet next week!!

Glad that this afternoon not having a big lunch!
Vincent back from Japan,
ask me out for lunch and return money to me!
Yeah!! I have free lunch and got back my money!!

Although the food are so normal and simple.
But that's ok!!
Honestly those food are quite suck,
too oily for the beef fried noodle,
and that yellow colour friend noodle no taste,
also the coffee so sour!!!
Only the sausage is better!!
I won't go to this restarurant in Mong Kok again!!
~~ Sweet heart garden ~~ What a moronic name!!

Birthday 4th episode!!

Although my birthday was already past,
but I still got a lot of pictures not yet post!!
I was too busy everyday,
pictures stay in my mobile phone for many days,
Now, I will show them to all of you!!

The 4th celebration was with my ex boyfriend's mother,
she treat me so good, even we broke up for almost 3 years,
she will stay ask me for dinner when free.
Tonight, she bring her another son, and her grandson!!

She ordered a lot of food,
we can't even finish it!!
But honestly, I am not feeling so well tonight,
I am still drunk, and not yet recover!!
My head fucking pain!!

But still, I try to ate a lot,
don't want to make her worry about me!!
And this auntie, she so love to drink,
she keep ask me to drink more red wine,
God!!! I tried so hard to prevent many glasses,
hahaahh!! I really don't want to get drunk again!

really thanks you Ar E,
I know you really treat me so good...
I really happy for what you did on me,
Oh, Thx Ho Kin too, the dishes are great!!

Alright... my birthday just past!!

Damn it, one more year older now!
From this year, I won't celebrate my next birthday anymore,
Then I will just like Alan Tam,
always 25th!!!

Just finished dinner with Janet,
thank her to celebrate with me almost every year!!
I will blog the pictures here tomorrow!

The one I am waiting still not yet call me,
nothing to do for me,
maybe he really forget my birthday,
yes, what a heart break....
I wait almost one hour,
maybe I should just go to bed,
and forget him...

Thx for everyone give me such a wonderful birthday!
Thx for every single words you all said to me!
But the one I must thanks,
Must be my mother,
because this date, is the day she born me out,
the biggest painful she had before,
born a 8 lbs girl in the hospital!
It should be so damn pain and difficult!
Mother, I will treat u so good,
wait when I get enough money,
I will fed you, then you won't need to work anymore!

Oh, after that 2nd and 3rd celebration,
I am totally exhasuted,
I felt asleep in the office,
headache and vomit!!!
HAHAHAH, what a nuts I am!!!
Glad that I no need to get drunk everynight,
don't laugh on me!!! ok??

Still have five hours!!

Another five hours, it will be my 25th life start!!
I feel so confused. I want to be mature,
but I afraid to getting old!
I scare about if I getting old,
I will lose more things,
because, there are too many things that is older than me!

Still not yet 25th,
but all of my friends are already celebrate with me!
Everyone saying happy birthday to me,
everyone busy with my birthday celebration!

But, someone still don't have any signal for me!
I wish he will give me a surprise,
or at least can say a " Happy Birthday " to me,
Or maybe just sms me,
or just notice that today is my birthday!!

Still have five hours,
I don't know what will he do at that moment,
maybe he really busy so forget about it,
maybe he don't even say " Happy Birthday " to me,
maybe he won't even call me,
maybe zero sms,
maybe he do nothing....

Then what should I do??
Ought to cry??
But I wish my tears are come out because of happiness...
yes...
my birthday...
it shouldn't be in saddness!!

Birthday 3rd episode!!

After finished that $1200 Romantic meal!
Drank all the red wine,
I was a little bit drunk!!
With this drunk mood,
I went on my next location!!
~~ THE PUB ~~

People always said that,
all birthday girl must be drunk!!
Me also!
Sam and Brenda called many friends to celebrate with me!
But I totally late for 1 hour!!
I am really sorry! But that is not my fault!!

When I arrived, I saw a lot of people,
I really so happy for that!
But I can imagine about how drunk I will be!!
Glad that, I don't really know those people,
not so close friend,
so they didn't try hard to make me drunk!
Brenda buy me a Fendi's bracalet,
THANKS SO MUCH!!

Sam~~ again Hello Kitty,
come on, I am 25,
I am not a kid anymore,
although I love Hello Kitty,
but I wish you buy me something useful,
than a Hello Kitty box!!

BoBO made me a chocolate cake!!
Thx so much!!!
Although I already finished a huge dinner,
but I still ate this cake,
because I knwo she spend a lot of time to made!
Chocolate flavour, I love it!

Anyway, we played until 2am.
But I still feel not enough,
then Moronic Ass Leo,
he brought me " 151 ",
a fucking high alcohol's drink,
Shit man!!
I totally KO by this drink.
Because of this glass of drink,
I drunk!!
I need to ask my friend to drive me home!
But glad that I still know the way home,
I still remember to take off clothes,
I still know what I hug to sleep!!
HAHAHA!! But when I drunk,
I will be super crazy!!
Do a lot of nuts things,
people who know me will not surprise for what I did!!

I almost forgot to wake up at the morning,
almost late to work!
but glad that someone wake me up at 08:30.
My head freaking pain, just like a bomb!
I was totally exhasuted!

I really feel so tired at the office.
tooks some pills, have a short nap.
I feel better.
Phone with brenda, she afriad I can't back to work too.
After brenda, Sam call me too,
once I saw his numbers show on my screen,
I suddenly want to vomit,
then when I pick up,
I can feel something running up to my thoats,
I just hang off and went to throw out!!
Shit, am I really sick about SAM??
So he makes me trow out even I just saw his numbers??

What a horrible day!
But my marathon's celebration still need to move on!
Tonight, I need to celebrate with my ex boyfriend's mother,
she love beer and wine, SHIT!!!
I really don't want to have a birthday!!!

Birthday 2nd episode!!

Finally, I can find some time to upload photo,
I really have a dead feeling,
freaking tired, exhausted now!!

Just 2 days, and I already feel so tired.
But I really happy for that,
because many people celebrate with me!!

The 2nd celebration is with my old friend.
We didn't contact each other for around 3 years.
Actually, I never think about celebrate with him.
Just suddently yesterday we chat in MSN,
then he said buy me dinner for a celebration.
Of cause I so welcome for this invitation.
Because we really didn't see each other a long period.

But he~~Moronic Ass!!
He was late!!
Totally 45 mins!!!
I just sat in the office to wait him!!
It really make me so angry!!
Then he bring me to a steak house!!
To try the steak set with 花膠,
OK, I don't know how to say that in english!
But just something very very good for skin!!
The set dinner was really weird!!
How can these 2 kinds of food mix together??
I really can't believe it!
But it really taste good!!
It was huge, and really delisious!!!
The steak are so soft!!
I don't eat Beef, becasue I am sensitive with Beef,
but I still try this,
really really so good steak!!
Even if I have many red dots on my skin,
I will still feel so worth to try!!

Oh, and that crab and mushroom soup,
I don't know is it because I drank red wine,
I feel the soup so light,
but still not bad!!

This is the firswt time that I finish the dinner so fast,
we only spent like 45 mins to finish all.
Because he is late, and I need to go to the 3rd celebration!
Before we move on,
he order a cake for me,
something have fire on the top ,
u can see the blue light is the fire,
the whole cake is on fire!!
WOW!!! great!!!
But I can finish it, because too full already!!
This is the first cake for me.
And there are a lot of cakes coming to me!!

There is a long time that we didn't really talk!!
But he really shock me this time.
Because he told me that he is already engaged!!
HOLY SHIT!!
Why everyone beside me are going to engage, or get marry??
Why am I so poor that I still can't find someone marry me??
Everyone said I am a good girl. But why!!!!!
I really depressed with this!!

But anyway, I still congratutate him!
I really think that Love is great,
and the marriage is also great!!
I really hope that he can try his best to build up the marriage.
And won't regret with it!!
No more harm anyone!!

Jesus!!! I still need to rush to the next celebration!!
Add oil!!

Birthday 1st episode!!

WoW!!!!
Today is my 1st celebration of my birthday!
A new guy I just met! HAHA!!
I can't believe that he is the first one,
to celebrate with me!!
He brought me to a japanese restaurant,
it is in Mong Kok.
Nice food!! You guys can try later!!
Two person around $5xx, not very expensive!!

He is the guy treat me dinner,
THANKS!!!
But he is not my boyfriend,
don't make him lose the chance to chase other girl!

I still not yet get the gift from him,
he said that this gift only can find in HONG KONG side,
can't find in KOWLOON side,
I really want to know what is it!
So excited!!!
I CAN'T WAIT FOR IT !!!

Tomorrow have another friends celebrate with me,
yeah!! so happy!!
But I think I should sleep more tonight,
need to haev more energy to play!!!

Marathon celebration!!!
I am coming!!

It's a horrible world!!!

STill have four days,
then I will ebcome 25 years old!!!
I am so afraid of it because maybe worse than now!!

Still have four days,
I think I should remember it!
I just finished movie and back home.
I sat on the toliet,
playing with my cell phone!!
I love to take pictures in the toliet,
don't complain me!!
I just feel the lighting are so good,
and can make me more pretty in the pictures,
also, my toliet is freaking tidy!!

Look at my face from the mirror,
I still look like a idiot!!
I love to pretend lovely!!!
But I no more can cheat people,
I am old now,
and my skin turns rough....

I grew up, I walked many path,
my mind being more mature,
but my brain is still stubborn...
Thank God, I can make many friends this year,
They arranged a Marathon Birthday party for me!!
Oh My God!!!
All of my friends are divided into many small part,
I need to celebrate with them seperately!!!
I 'm afriad will tired like dog before my birthday!
" TOUCH WOOD " !!

But I still so apperciate for everyone which remembered my birthday!
I treasure all of you so much!!

Wondering is it my cats also know my birthday is coming,
these few days they treat me very good!!
They will welcome me when I home,
Ball will sleep with me after mum go to work,
Fat Cat will stay beside me when I am studying.
I am so happy with that!!


But her eyes...so tough men!!!
How can she stare me like that??
Is there anything behide me??
Hey don't scare me!!

I willt ry to take more photos,
for my Marathon birthday party,
because I really want to make a great memory!!

Yeah!! I have a big improve of my work!!!

Althought my work is quite easy,
but it can still make me headache when busy!
These few days,
my boss give me a project to finish.
It is my pleasure to do,
but it is not my responsibility men!!
No experience! Not my job duty!
But I still trying to face this challenge!!!

Keep thinking whole day,
at least have a idea about this project!
But I still need to wait others to finish their part first!
Then I can start my part!

My head is going to explode!!!
But glad that someone ask me out for tea!!
I went to Charlie Brown cafe,
I love the MOCHA!!!
There were a lot of SNOOPY,
it brought out my memories again!!
I ate chocolate ice-cream too,
YUMMY!!!
Eating ice-cream in winter,
FANTASIC!!!



But when I got back to office,
my head started to pain again!!
How can I handle this project??
How can I solve all these problems??
They are helping me??
Or to harm me???
I am freaking ill with that!!!
Boss's not here today,
I better take a short nap!!
hahaha!!

Oh, what I have now is already the best!!

Sometimes, human are greedy!!
We always want to haev something better!!
Before I believe in Jesus,
I was always wondering,
why I just have these??
Why they can have that??
I grow up in many many comparison.
These few days,
I started to think,
what I want to have??
What suppose I can have??

I want to earn big money,
but I am lazy,
I spend a lot of time to sleep!
I want to be pretty,
but I can't stop eating,
and I sleep always late!
I want to study,
but I just always find some excuse,
to avoid it!
I want to clear my credit card,
but I still can't stop shopping!
I want to have a boyfriend which love me crazy,
but I just always temper on them!!

Seems like, I can't get what I want,
because I didn't try my best!

Soon will my my 25th birthday,
Oh my GOD!! I am getting older,
I feel so depressed!
I really don't want to waste my life like this!
I have to force myself to finish my goal!
You know?
I 've really changed a little bit!

Nowaday, I will back home after work,
spend time with my mum,
studying, praying, then go to bed!
Go to the church 2 times a week,
try to understand God!
In the past, when I encounter something bad,
I will cry, I will scream and temper!
But now, I will pray to God,
and make myself calm down,
think in the other way!

Friends said I really changed,
I becomed gentler, and more feminine now!
Oh, also I make more friends now,
at least is the kind of real friend!
My friend need to do a surgery next week,
but she still make a birthday party for me,
I am so happy about that,
thank her so much!!
I will pray for her health!

The last time I cried was 4 days ago,
I don't know when will be the next time.
I won't feel ashamed of that,
when I was small,
I will afraid of letting people know,
feel so embrassed.
But now, I won't,
because I am a human,
I have feeling,
so I can cry!!
I hope the next time I cry,
is because I am happy!!!

Touching~~ can just a simple word!!

I am a sensitive person!
I can be so touching even with such a small thing!!
When I am sick, I will be so touching,
if someone so care about me,
I would love to hug them!!
When I am sleeping,
when someone call me,
and told me how much he love me,
I will be so touching and want to kiss him!
Even in the dream I will still laugh and wake up!!
When I am angry, I will be touching too,
if someone give me a big kiss!!

I am so insecure!!
When I born to this world,
I already felt that FORTUNE is far away from me!
There is no one will really treat me good with heart!
That's why when someone use a very confirm style,
to told me how much he treasure me,
how much he love me,
I will be so happy, and touching,
I can happy for few days just with these few words!!

I really want to shout out to him~~

" BABE!! If you can marry me, I will say yes!!
Just let my mum understand you will treasure me,
and give me the best you can to make me happy,
then I will stand beside you forever and ever!! "

So touching!! I hope one day,
there will be someone can hear me saying these words to him!!

I will try my best to become better and better!
I want my love understand I am the best for him!!

HAHA!! It is one month!!!

I worked in this company over one month!
Until now, still don't have any big problem!
But I don't have much work to do now,
so everyday I need to find something to do,
try to do some research on the internet,
sufting other company to see any new idea!
All of my friends said it is a easy job.
But NO!!!
You are wrong!!
The job is really really annoying!!
I need to face hundred of problems everyday!
And I need to solve many complains too.!!
What the Hell!!!
I am MARKETING MANAGER,
but not CUSTOMERS SERVICE!!!

I still remember my frist day of work!
There is nothing on my desk!!
It really make me don't really know what to do!!
But now,
my desk is full of stuffs...
computer, files, mirror,
Oh!! Mirror is very important for me!
Because I need to do make up in the office!
HAHAH!! Can wake up a little bit late !!
And have doll, is my friend gave it to me!!
And my favourite HELLO KITTY!!

Also have some handmade stuff!
I download some graphic from the internet,
and make it into a doll!!

Oh!!! my cup!! She is my cat!!
I love them so much!!
And I will miss them even when I work!!

Thx for my boss to buy me such a huge computer!
The monitor is 19" !!
It is very cool!!
But the window is suck!!
It is XP home edition!!
Many software can't use with this bloody window!!
Glad that my work load now is not really heavy!!!

I hate arguing with anyone!!!

I really dislike arguing with anyone!!
Although, sometimes you will find out that,
argue can make you more understand someone,
but most of the time,
it will only make me upset,
and furious on everyone!!

I won't say any bad words,
becasue I really understand that,
when we are in anger,
we can say any words to hurt people!
I don't want to hurt anyone,
that's why I don't like to fighting with anyone!!

When I face with someone,
no matter how wrong he is!!!
I still can't say out anything infront of him!
I don't want to point out his false!
When he keep scolding me,
I just keep silent!!!

When I face someone I really care!
I really don't know how to express my feeling!
I afraid of making them misunderstand!!
I afraid to hurt anyone!!
I afraid will lose someone I care after argue!!

When we live in this world,
we won't know when is the end of the world!
So I treasure everything, everyone around me!
I try my best to be a good girl!
And hope my friends will treasure me also!!
But the stress really big!
I need to make them all happy,
I spent all of my time,
I tried all method!!
Not make them misunderstand,
not make them get any hurt!!
At last, I get lost!!

" I do for you, You do for me!! "
This sentences keep affect me!!
I throught when I treat someone good,
they will also treat me good!
But, seems not really!!
That is not 100% truth!!
But I will still try my best to treat everyone good!

Arguing, is really not my skill!!
And I don't want to practise it!!
Keep silent is the only thing I want to do!
I am not sure is it the best choice!!
But....
I just good in keep silent....

I really love to hear nice words!!!

I love to talk straight direct to someone!
Point out someone's fault,
I am not trying to complain them,
just this is a action to show I am their real friend!
Only a real friend will point out your problem,
and spend time to tell you!!

But, I still love to hear some nice words!
" I am sorry ",
" I love you ",
" Have you is already enough ",
" Of coz I miss you ",
" you are not my gf, is my wife ",
" Have such a beautiful gf, I don't need other anymore "....

Every girl would love to hear these kind of words!
Although we can't make sure are they really want to say that,
or just want to make me happy for awhile,
but I still love to hear that!!

I am just a simple and normal girl!!
i will cry because some little stuff,
I will sad because someone betray me,
I will hurt because some one makes me disappointed!!
But when someone told me this,
I will become so soft heart!!
I will be so confused that should I keep on angry him??
Should I just forgive him??
I love to be hugged!!
I love to be holding my hand!!
I love to be kissed suddently!!

There's no such a method can make u understand someone,
no method to make sure is he really saying the truth,
no method to show how deep is his love to you!!
Believe him??
Have confidence on him??
Seems too difficult!!!
Afraid to believe!!
Afraid to be cheated after I believe him!!
Afraid to be so understand the chances to be cheated,
is more than someone really treating you with heart!!
Afraid promise is just a imagination!!

No one knows the future!!
being with who??
Doing what??
Staying where??
You can predict anything!!
So now I just want to enjoy this moment,
care those people I care about!
Love someone which worth to love!!
I hope you will treasure me too!!

Happy New Year!!

At last,
a brand new year come!!!
I am looking forward of it!!
Waiting to see what will happen this year,
waiting to have a great love,
waiting to slove all my problems,
wishing everyone will be more healthy!!

Last year,
there were many many bad things happen on me!
I've been hurted, cried, sad, disappointed!!
I really wish that this year,
I won't be like these again!

Last night,
I've been to the Christian party,
I am still a " slow hot " person!
I cant talk with those people I don't really know them!
I am not shy or what!
I just can't be so aggrestive to talk with them!
But, I can see that they are so happy!
They were so excited to wait that new year come!
They all have a big smile on their face!
And they all thanks GOD to let them come over this year!
They really believe in GOD,
they thanks GOD to let them so happy!
In my eyes, I have little envy them,
seems like after believe in GOD,
you can slove all the problems,
and you will pretend all of those problems,
are the training that GOD give to you!
When I listen to them,
I keep thinking,
is it means GOD want to train you,
so he ask you boss to fire you?
Is it means GOD want to train you,
so he ask your friend to hurt you??
I am not trying to complain or what,
but I just so confused about it!!
Why GOD need to train us like this??

Today is the first day of new year,
let us keep on having wishes and hope for this year,
make us become more useful,
and learn how to love and be loved!!!