A PICTURE

Some one drew a picture for me,
very colourful and beauty.
I don't know beside a shit,
she can still draw something so nice.
Thank you so much!

I was in a big sick,
faint yesterday when work until mid night,
glad that my boyfriend came pick me up.
101c fever! Keep shaking and cold swear.
Very sick, didn't go to work today.

At last saw the doctor,
but he said I am ok, just a little get cold.
Fuck him, if ok why I fall down?
If ok, why I cold swear?
Anyway, $180 for a sick leave letter,
better than none.

Honey bought me a diamond cross necklace.
So beautiful. I am so happy.


十二粒鑽石, 加起來差不多半卡,
好靚, 好鍾意, 女人都是喜歡鑽石的,
尤其是我愛的人送的, 我更喜歡!!!
多謝你!!! I love you~~~

一定要養好身體, 唔可以成日咁病法,
上次身體檢查又驗唔到有事,
或者去驗血啦!!

Too big pressure with my job and study.
I can feel my health have some weird problem.
I can feel it out.
Maybe I should take a long long holiday!

lack of reader

From the day I out of someone's life,
and from the article that I wrote about how disappointed on someone,
seems my blog have less reader to visit.
I don't know why, maybe because my late update,
or maybe because there's nothing interesting to read anymore.
The counter increase so slow everyday,
feel so depressed that maybe really no one interest about my life.

自從我離開了某人的生活,
自從我寫出對某人的行為很失望之後,
我的網誌少了很多讀者.
我不知道為什麼, 可能因為我很少更新,
或者因為沒有什麼有趣的東西讓人看.
看著那個人數紀錄器跳動得那麼慢,
也許真的沒有人對我的生活好奇!

I feel like I am a totally different person now.
Everything seems like so ambiguous.
Suddenly realise we are all ZERO when came to this world.
WE have no clothes, no money, no friends.
What we owned now is a gift, a bonus from the God.
If one day, we lost everything again,
no more have the right to own them.
We should not blame anyone,
because we came to this world with nothing,
we leave this world with nothing too.

我覺得我變得很不同了,
所有東西也變得很模糊不清.
突然發覺其實我們來到這個世界的時候,
是什麼也沒有, 一絲不掛, 沒有衣服,
沒有錢, 沒有朋友,
我們所擁有的都是上帝送給我們的禮物, 是額外的,
如果有一天, 我們又再次失去所有,
我們也不應該抱怨任何人,
因為我們從沒有帶著什麼來到這個世界,
所以也不能帶什麼離開.

I treasure what I have now,
but I still believe that wonderful things won't last forever.
If one day, this beautiful things need to leave me alone,
I will still bless for it.
Just pretend it is a dream,
a dream never come true,
but at least I did enjoy before.

我珍惜現在擁有的,
但我相信好景不會常在.
如果有一天, 這美好的東西要捨我而去,
我仍然會祝福它.
就當這是一場夢,
一場永遠不會實現的夢,
但至少我享受過!

Back from the Sweet Sweet HoneyMoon!!

Just went to Macau for 3days2night trip with my honey.
So happy that we can spend so much time together!
剛從澳門回來, 好像渡蜜月一樣,
很開心可以和我的honey過了這三日兩夜!
We ate a lot, sleep a lot!
HAHAAH!!! Become fat pig soon!
我地又食又訓, 哈哈, 好快大家都變做大肥豬啦!
We did gamble a little bit to.
Didn't earn a lot.
But just a game! So no need to lost money already very good!
我們有去賭場玩啦, 雖然沒有贏很多,
不過只是遊戲啦, 不用輸已經很好!
I've never go out for a vacation with BF.
Normally just go for BBQ or Clubbing.
But this time, really leave HongKong,
and go for few days!
我從來沒有和男朋友去旅行,
最多就是去bbq或者去飲酒,
但這一次真的離開香港,
去另一個地方幾天!
I enjoy this vacation so much,
we took a lot of photos,
there are a lot of memories from this trip!
I would never forget this.
我好享受這一個旅程, 影了很多相,
實在有太多回憶了, 我永遠也不會忘記!

I love the orginal you,
please don't change your character for me,
just be yourself.
我喜歡原本的你, 請不要改變自己去配合我!
做返自己已經好足夠!
I know what you've done on me is good for me,
I know you care me a lot.
Thanks for so take care of me,
and let me feel the reality of your love!
我知道你所做的一切都是為我好,
我知道你好緊張我,
多謝你咁照顧我,
以及讓我知道你有多愛我!
I would like to be with you forever.
I hope that when I just wake up can see your face!
I wish to hear your voice everyday!
我希望永遠也和你在一起!
我希望每一朝起身都見到你的面,
我想每天也聽到你的聲音!
Yup, I know what I am writing here is too stand out!
I know people will feel I am too silly to say I love you here!
But I really wish that you know I Love You Honey!
我知道我現在寫的東西是多肉麻,
我也知道其他人一定覺得我好笨....
但我真的想說 "我愛你" !!!

一條直路!!!!

我不喜歡馬路, 因為馬路太危險,
但我喜歡大直路, 有一種喜歡到發瘋的程度!
什麼時候發現我喜歡大直路我已經不記得,
但我真的愛上了這樣的一條馬路.

喜歡大直路的原因很笨,
因為大直路我可以把前面看得很清楚,
因為大直路我不用想要往哪一方走.
如果前面的路有危險, 我有足夠的時間去躲開.
如果前面的路泥濘, 我可以先把褲管捲起.
我很笨, 走路的時候, 平坦的路也常常摔倒,
如果看不清前面的路我一定摔得粉碎.
在大直路上, 我可以看得很遠, 很遠,
有時候, 我更可以看到30分鐘後我會到達的地方是怎樣,
可以預計到前面的境況又是怎樣.
在大直路上, 我不用怕突然有人跑出來傷害我,
沒有人可以躲在角落裡等候襲擊我.

討厭轉角的路, 因為會有很多未知數的存在,
不知道有什麼東西在轉角的位置,
不知道有誰躲在那裡,
不知道會不會很危險,
什麼也不知道, 很恐怖.
如果有一個大洞在轉角的地方,
我哪會有時間去躲過?
一定掉到深淵裡面.
如果有小偷, 我一轉角,
他的刀鋒就會深深地插到我的肚子.



可是, 人生裡總會有很多的暗角位, 轉彎處,
平坦的路不常有, 有的時候也輪不到你走.
我喜歡別人安排我走我應該走的路,
所以我喜歡聽耶穌的話,
他會為我安排好一切,
該認識的人, 該走的路,
該放棄的東西, 該說的話,
他一一為我準備好!
前面的路, 我還沒有看清楚,
只看到5步範圍內的路,
5步以後的路, 我還在摸索,
是平坦的? 是崎嶇的? 是直直的? 是彎彎的?
我都不知道...


看著這一些照片, 我好想離開香港,
去一個只有直路的地方,
不用去猜前面的路是怎樣,
跟喜歡的人一起, 一起往前走...
我好累...身心也很累,
裝著很堅強, 可是有好幾次雙腰乏力, 差一點摔倒.
我沒有讓他知道我的累,
不想他擔心我的身體這麼虛弱...
明天, 是我們第一次旅行,
希望可以盡慶...
多帶一些維他命丸應該可以啦...

You think it is funny?

I've got a email this morning.
"SHE" sent to me...
I don't think is a ghost or what,
but someone's bf told me last week about her death,
how come she suddenly email to me?
I was shock when I reliase "SHE" sent me a email.
Actually, I am glad that she is still ok,
and still alive..
I pray to God everyday just wish that she can be happy in the heaven.
Is good to hear that she is still alive.

From her long long email, I really don't know how to feedback.
It seems we have a lot of problems bewteen us.
It seems we are difficult to get together again.
Not because we hate each other,
just because the relationship already spoiled.
Yes, I remember how good she treat me before,
I remember how many night she talk with me when I broke up with BF.
I remember the gift she sent to me for my birthday each year.
I remember how she care about my life.
4 years really have a lot of good and bad things happen bewteen me and her.
There's nothing can replace our memory.

But...can we get together again?
Can we just like 1 month ago?
Can she realyl get back to the original girl that I knew 4 years ago?
We both grow up, and we live in the different area.
I still remember that we both have dreams,
dream to go vacation together 5 years later to Finland.
Dream to be her child's aunt.
Dream to visit each other's wedding party.
Dream a lot. Plan a lot.

Right this moment, I really don't know how to face the relationship.
Too complicated that I really don't know how to handle it.
Everything spoiled. The confidence on this friendship spoiled.
Seems like everything just gone, and no more hope in the future.
When I just trying to get out of this shadow,
"SHE" appear again.
When I just planning to move on, and start my new life,
"SHE" appear again.
I am really happy that she still alive.
There's nothing important than she can be alive.
It really takes me some time to think clear,
and prepare my schedule.
I can't right now just get back to her,
and be friend with her like nothing happen.
I really need sometme to manage everything.
It a fate to know each other.
It also need fate to be friend again.

Thank God, you bring her back to this world.
Thank God, you let her have a healthy life.

A story!

There is something happening on my friend right now.
She and her bf are so complicated.
She love him, and he love her,
but none of them know how to treat this relationship.
He did a lot of things for her,
she give up a lot of things for him.
He spend a lot of time with her,
she sleep so less because of him.
They have small fight all the time,
arguing about some mistrust.
He don't believe she only belongs to him,
she can't imagine how come he always push him to other guys!
He mad about those photo which she take with other guys few months ago,
she sad because he scold her for meaningless reason.

He love her, and she love him,
but what method can make this relationship be smooth?
She cried all the time,
he screamed all the time!
She sad about his words,
he isonima with her attitube!

One day, they had a big fight,
almost break up,
She reliased that she really love him,
and can't live without him,
she know that she can have a lot of bf,
but none of them can be so good as him.
He reliased that she is really important for him,
although she still not stable,
but she is trying to be good girl,
and if he leave her, she will be so poor that everyone love to bully her.

At last, they stick together again.
Sometimes I will think that a arguement will depart a couple.
But sometimes it can make two individual close together again.
I don't kow what is the future bewteen them,
I wish that they can have a happy ending,
which won't be affect with anybody else.
Life is short, is fortunate if you can find someone you love.
Capital, Career, Car... not really important,
it is really hard to find someone which really use his heart to love you.
Try to admire for what he did for you,
and treasure the time he is still by your side.
You can't enforce anyone to love you forever,
there is no binding contract bewteen a couple.
Only use your heart, your attitude to treat someone good,
can make him stay and return his love to you too.

Never ignore the things that someone do for you,
if one day, he suddenly disappear,
you will be the one who cried like a dog,
and no one will pity on you.

She is gone...

Got a news today, someone's bf sms me this morning again.
He said she is gone, after the operation,
she was in coma, and gone at 02:45am.
I can't believe that anyway.
It seems too dramatic for what happen in these 3 weeks.
Can life be so dramatic?
After over 200 calls, and sms from her bf,
after what he cursed me, and complaint and scolded me why not believe her.
After what he mistrusted me, after what she denied....
Seems like things at last settle down.
I am not sure that is it just a lie which HE think will good for me and her.
I am not sure that is she really past away.
But I really admire the friendship with her.

From the last blog, I said I don't believe all those things,
and thinking about is it THAT GUY exist.
HAHAHA, after someone's bf read that,
he sms me again. ( seems he really free to read my blog when she still in coma ).
He ask why I can deny she exist after all these things happen.
I don't know is it my english so bad,
or he can't understand what I am talking about.
I just said THAT GUY means HE, not she, is not exist,
I mean I am wondering did she really have a bf keep talking to me in sms,
is it really have a GUY keep inform me her condition?
Is it really have a GUY keep calling me from day to night?
Is it really have a GUY keep scold me and curse me to protect his gf?
I don't know. I just think if my bf in coma,
I won't have the mood to online, msn, check email, or read someone's blog.
I won't be so free.

But anyway, no matter is it the truth,
no matter is she really past away,
I just hope that she can be happy at her side all the time.
And I wish God will protect her always.




Send her a photo of angel!
Wish her will be happy after I out of her life which her bf so wish I can do it.

And if YOU (Her bf ) is reading this,
I hope that you can be stronger,
and never forget about her.
And stop saying those bull shit to hurt anyone else,
you are not her, not me,
you won't know exactlly what is happening,
and you have no right to curse someone as you are also Christian.
Good luck to you!

Life is just like a drama!

Being so busy everyday,
wake up at 6am, and sleep after 2am,
lack of sleep!!!
Very big black eye circles,
feel exhausted and seems like soon will be fall down.
Mobile phone still keep ringing all the time,
someone, and someone's bf keep bothering me,
with the annoying sms and calls, and also email!
I really don't have the energy to deal with them.
I don't know what they want,
I rememeber that someone ask me to out of his gf's life forever 1 week before.
And now he complain me why leave her alone.
Is this so meaningless?
I just do what you ask me to do,
and now you complain it is my fault,
and keep cursing me via the sms?
I am Christian, I would never want to hurt anyone.
I listen to him, and out of his gf's life,
just because this is the best way that we all feel comfortable.
If I keep on talk to her, she will never stop ask for more.
If I pick up the call, she will non stop call me all the time.
I just want everything can be stop at this moment.
It doesn't seems like is my fault to quit.
I don't think anyone would love to disturbed by 20 calls,
and 30 sms everyday, even at meeting or mid-night.
Yes, I don't believe anything the someone's bf said,
not because it can make me feel better.
Just because it doesn't make sense for what he said.
Maybe from the begining, this GUY doesn't exist!
Maybe all those sms, are from her.
I don't know. But I really feel so tired to be her friend.
I hate a relationship with stress.
I hate people force me to do anything.
And I hate that someone so occupy all my time not even care I am busy!

Lack of sleep, really tired.
Didn't sleep well for a week.
Working so hard of my job,
also preparing my homework for the school.
Just finish 1 assignment,
still have 2 to go.
Oh my god. Very busy life.
I really want to just focuz on my school,
but I can't...
I need to feed myself.
I am not like someone which can feed by bf.

A nice song!

In today's church, I sang a very nice song,
I would like to share to all of you here.
With the chinese and english lyrics,
I hope that all of you treasure what you have now,
and never spoil or waste anything that God gave you.

如若你能看見藍天, 能望到千朵白雲隨風轉,
願你不忘記感謝神, 能看見絕未必然,
如若你能聽到潮聲, 能聽見千萬狂濤飛濺,
願你不忘記感謝神, 能聽見乃主恩典.
環顧世上不知幾多眼睛, 連自己雙手亦無從一見,
若你抬頭仍舊見藍天, 請緊記凝望多遍.
環顧世上數不清的耳朵, 連父親聲音亦從未聽見,
若你偶然緩步至岸邊, 請多聽潮浪一遍.

If you can see the blue sky,
can see there are a thousand clounds moving by the wind,
please don't forget to thank God,
it is not bound to be seen
If you can hear the waves,
can hear there are a thousand waves running in the sea,
please don't forget to thank God,
it is because God gave us this grace.
There are a lot of eyes in the world,
not even can look at their hands,
if you still can see the sky when you raise your head,
please try to do it as much as you can.
There are a lot of ears in the world,
some not even have a chance to hear what their father said,
if you walk past a ashore,
please stop and listen the waves.

What we have now is God gave us,
he let us have the power to earn money,
the chance to work,
a family,
friends,
and healthy body...
Even if you don't have all these amazing grace,
we still have our life now,
we are still alive.
Please thank God for what you have now,
and never try to spoil anything.
We won't have a second chance if we lost one,
Life is short, and good things won't last forever.
Try to treasure someone you love now before you die.
Try to make everyone happy before you leave.
DOn't regret, Don't complain.
Thank God let me know you before I die.
I love you Jesus.

I am BACK!!!

At last, I am back to HONG KONG!!
Worked in China nearly one week.
It really makes me so sad,
I don't like mainland China.
Dirty, dusty, rude people, crazy driver.
Food no good, only cheap for everything,
but quality suck!
I work from 8am to 8pm,
no entertainment, just foot massage and study at hotel after work.
but glad that my honey came to China visit me,
hahahah, we did go to PAK TAL.
Although we complaint the food, the restarurant and the service,
but we still had a good time!

Too bad that someone keep disturb me again,
I ask her to just leave me alone for few month,
and wait me recover my health, and being not so busy.
But she didn't listen to me, and keep sms me, and call me.
I was in China, everyone knew it,
how can I read email?
but she don't believe, just keep ask me will I still be her friend.
Come on, no contact for 15 days only,
you need me to confirm I am still your friend everyday?
I really can't stand for it anymore,
our 4 years friendship spoil because she complain I spent less time with her.
She don't care I need to work over 10 hours everyday,
she don't care you need to have 6 hours marathon meeting all the time,
she don't care you have no time to do your private things at home,
she don't care you are having dinner with your boyfriend,
she don't care your whole family was sleeping already,
she don't care everything, she just need you talk to her,
and alright, one day I no talk to her, and have argue with her,
then she went to suicide, and almost killed her babe which still in stomach!
Oh my god! Isn't it crazy?
Is a life!! How can you so look down a unborn babe?
No talk, means not friend?
No talk for few days only then need to suicide?
I am only your friend! Not your husband!

I don't really like those people keep force me to do something,
I need to work, and study, and hang out with my honey,
how can I manage so much time to chat with you,
but with non important topics? Only gossip???
Suddenly said suicide and sent to hosiptal,
suddenly said in coma, and will die soon,
suddenly said wake up and can leave hosiptal,
suddenly said sent to hosiptal again, and need operation,
suddenly said have something in her brain and will die soon,
suddenly said babe need to kill to keep herself healthy,
suddenly said babe can keep and will move to LA live soon,
everyday have different news,
are you acting drama??
TVB also won't made out such kind of drama!
DO you believe what you said?
I don't believe honestly,
and I don't believe can have so many things happen within 2 weeks,
after your suicide.
Will hosiptal so fast let you do brain operation after you suicide by pills?
Will hosiptal let you leave hosiptal before they make sure you are fine?
Will hosiptal don't know your brain have problem when you first sent to there?
It doesn't make sense!!
How can you make me believe that you are really in coma or not?

People reading this blog maybe think I am cold blood,
but I am not, I spent 4 years to treasure this friendship,
I don't mind she occupy all my time,
and temper to me every3 days,
I treasure her so much just like my family.
I talk to her all the time when she need me.
I really did a lot for her,
but she never feel enough and satisfy.
4 years is not short, but she just keep ask for more and more!
And I really don't like people use DIE to force me be her friend!
Is a life, Jesus won't allow us to kill ourself like this!
I really want her out of my life,
I can't stand for her crazy attitude anymore.
She really scare me that I will afraid of her.
Will she kill me next time if I engaged and no more MSN??
Will she kill my son if I can't go vacation with her because my son need me?
She really crazy and don't understand what is respect.
I hate people keep calling me over 20 times a day,
and over 30 sms all the time,
I can already call police, because she is disturbing my life!
A very serious emotional disturbance!
She mades me scare to heard a mobile ring!
Now, I only put my mobile phone on silent mode,
becasue I am so afraid she call me again,
and seldom on my mobile phone now,
only let my boyfriend find me!
I don't want to spoil my life becasue of her crazy attitude!

Glad that my boyfriend still beside me when I need him to company me!
Yesterday was our 1 month celebration,
he said pink roses to my office!
HAHAHAH!!! First time recieve flowers at office!!
So sweet!!! I love you Honey!!
I will be good girl, work hard and kick out all those devil!



Thanks Honey, the flowers are so beautiful!!

I love pink!! THANKS!!

Missing you!

Need to be stay in China over 4 nights,
Oh my God. So miss my honey, my cats,
my mum and my bed!!!
Must bring NDS and school homework to China too.
Nothing to do after work,
maybe study at my room.
Boring, and sad!

There are something happen bewteen me and someone,
4 years friendship, totally different at one night,
everything spoil because someone did something stupid.
I didn't blame anything,
but I feel the feeling so weird that,
seems like we both don't know how to handle it,
and need to ask our honey to solve out problem.
HAHAHAH! Two women's fight need two men to solve!
We both sick, everyone sick!
Newspaper said over 60% 21th century adults have psycho problem.
Some feel stress all the time,
some so poor at socical,
some afraid to be alone,
some scare of mobile's ring,
some need totalk every mins,
some hate to talk to anyone,
some love to talk to doll!!
Everyone have some dark face,
everyone have their weird character.
I am sick too. What happen???
Is the end of the world??

I want to have a vacation after this China Business Trip.
Really need to have a long long sleep.
Really need to relax and eat healthy!
Looking forward to do the body massage!!
Looking forward to visit Macau again!

I don't really like China.

Although I am Chinese,
but I don't know why.
Just feel have a distance with those people in Main Land China.
They are rude??
They are noisy??
They can do anything to earn money??
They are crazy driver??
They love to spit on the stress??
They love to sit on the road??
Their outlook??
Thier attitude??
I don't know why, Just I don't really like China,
also Chinese. ( Although I am chinese too )
But soon I need to work in China.
And I need to stay over 4 nights there.
I've never been to China for that long.
I can't imagine what my life will be.
No internet!!
No confortable bed!!
No delicious food!!
Everywhere dirty and dusty!!
Everyone shout loudly and rude!!
Feel so nevrous now!
I really wish God can be my side!
Or my honey can go with me!
Scare to sleep with stranger!!!
Although she is my colleague,
but I don't like to sleep with other!!!
CRY!!!!!!!!!!!

I am still sick,
and now 21:00 I am still in office.
What the hell!!!
Super heavy work load.
Neverend meeting!
HAHAHHA!!!
Can be superwoman very soon!
God bless Me!!

這樣算是愛情嗎??

是你想跟他每一天都在一起?
是你光看著他的側臉也滿足?
是他抱得你很緊說要你永遠跟他在一起?
是他阻止你跟朋友去玩也沒所謂?
是他每一件事都呷醋的時候?
是你相信他所有說的話?
是他笨笨地笑你也跟著笑?
是你寧願犧牲睡覺的時候也要見一見他?
是他在你公司樓下等你下班, 等了兩個小時也不生氣?
是他發惡夢後立即打電話給你?
是無論什麼人說你不好, 他還是跟你在一起?
是明明他很睏, 還要陪你打書釘?
是明明會議已經開始了, 他還是要和你先吃飯, 要老闆等他?
是他會很在意你msn的nickname寫什麼?
是就算你有小肚子, 還覺得你瘦要你吃很多?
是每論何時都要牽著你的手?
是他會打聽你每天的事, 知道你跟誰在一起?
是他會給你很多意見, 要你聽他的?
是他為你了可以去死?
是他因為你一句話, 或一個動作而坐立不安?
是他從你的眼睛看到自己?

愛情永遠都是美好的,
當愛情還存在的時候,
就連對方放屁, 你也覺得是香的, 可愛的!
可是當愛情已經慢慢不存在,
曾經燦爛的花朵也開始糜爛的時候,
愛情又值多少錢?
愛一個人的時候, 你可以為對方做很多很多事情,
而且不會覺得後悔.
可是當這一種愛的感覺消失後,
就連說話的力氣也提不出來.
很多時候, 一段關係就是在這樣一種沉默中結束.
對方曾經為你做過的事,
都變成了回憶.
好的事情, 你會回味, 但又覺得可惜.
難過的事情, 你會想忘記, 而且會恨他一輩子.
兩個人能夠相遇其實也是一種緣份,
由朋友, 變成情人, 也是經過一份努力.
就算最後, 大家不再聯絡, 但也曾渡過一段美好的時光.
我希望你們都會幸福快樂,
所有我以前喜歡過的男生,
我希望你們真的可以找到一個比我好的女生,
也請祝福我也可抓住幸福.