What the hell???

How can those old and unmarried woman so shit!
Jealous me pretty than you?
Jealous all male colleagues play with me?
Jealous I am so free in the office?
Oh my god.
You think I want to be so free?
How much I wish I can have things to do?
How much I wish your boss give me some project to handle?
How much I wish I no need to look at her ass face all the time?
Do you think I want to kick you out of the office?
Sorry, I am not so free.
I am not so bitchy to do this stupid thing.
DO you think I sit infront of the computer just for watching VCD?
Sorry, I think I watch VCD is much better than you watch the stock market.

How can people be so bitchy, and stupid.
You think you report to boss then he will fire me?
Even he fire me, I don't think he will thank you.
Because he just lose a great staff to work for him.
I am not scare of you.
At least I never make problems out.
At least my value is higher than you.

Come on, keep on giving me problems.
Keep on trouble me.
I won't scare you.
Because I have God.
And I am not a loser which need to use golden finger.
I am so mature that I believe I can get higher salary,
and better benefit in another company.
So, keep on treat me bad,
keep on report me,
keep on say bad words behind me.
I won't scare you.
This company lose me,
then you will know who is the most important!

Play it loud!!!

Last night I went to my church friend's home.
There were around 40-50 people in the house.
We earned a lot of red packet.
Ate a lot of delicious food.
Played a lot of crazy game.
I totally earned 14 red packets.
yeah!!!! You know??
The last time I earn red packet over 10 was when I am still in ATV.
There were 3 years ago. Thank God, you made me can have great lunch next month.

Thanks everybody gave me such a wonderful night.
My problems still here, and no one in the church really know my problem.
But from the time you guys play with me.
I totally forgot I am sad. I forgot I am waiting for a answer.
HAHAHAH!! I am not a old woman that so easy to forget something.
But when I so concentrate to play.
I found out that, I shouldn't keep sad on something.
I still have my friend, and normal life is not bad.
House party without wine and smoke also nice!
Playing a group game with 20 people.
I push you, you push me!
I laugh you, you itchy me!
Things just so simple.
I've never have such a group of playmate like this.
I really enjoy this feeling.
I think this is really a great gift that God gave to me.
I have never been to this situtaion.
Seems like everyone are so happy.
Seems like everyone are so helpful, and no plan on you.
Seems like everyone are not going to take any benefit on you.

Before I believe in God. I will just hang out with friends,
clubbing, drinking, smoking, and partying.
No goal, No point, Nothing.
And even have a lot of people surrounding me,
I will still feel lonely when I am alone only for 1 minute.
But last night, even when I am home,
I can still feel happy, awake even already 24:00
no lonely feeling.
No sad even problems still not yet solve.
No moody that I want to cry.
Everything just seems so good for me!

Thank God, you let me know that I deserve something better.
And you let me know that I can have a lot of healthy friends.
And you let people know I am PRINCESS!!!
HAHAHA!!
I am really glad that when I feel useless, lonely,
I have God. I have the chance to know about God.
And from the time I pray to god,
I know he will solve my problem,
I believe in it!
You should believe in it too.

Oh! I love this drama!

There's a long time I didn't watch any Chinese drama.
I realyl have no interest on those stupid topic.
Always act so stupid, and no main story.
I don't really like those drama in HK.
But I still Love TVB, Ok???
Don't fire me! HAHAH

Anyway, I've been watching Prison break before,
then Dexter, all english drama,
oh, but I still watch some Taiwan's drama,
just like " The devil beside me",
" Green light forest ", and this!!!
" HANAZAKARINO KIMITACHIHE "
I love handsome actors.
Although their acting are still so green.
But when I sad, they can make me laugh.
And when I look at such pretty face,
make me feel have energy,
and still believe this world is beautiful!

The story not bad.
Ella's acting is too over, but cute.
I love her real character, so tough, and strong,
boylish, but sometime so funny and make people laugh.
Those 2 main lead also not bad.
Handsome and smart. Nice and take care people.
Is there such a good guy still alive in this damn shit world?
I don't think so, or maybe I have no fate to know them.
Maybe I should take a flight to Taiwan,
and ask my brother introduce them to me.
Oh!! my god!!! I am fat how now!
hahahahah!! Dun laugh on me!
I am still Little girl!!!
I am still 少女!!!
hahahaha

Thx!! I realyl have a good time!

All my close friends knew that I am having some problems now.
And they all knew that I can't really handle it.
I still don't know how to solve all these questions.
My emotion keep up and down in every single minute.

I've been sad over these for few months,
and only some of my friends knew about it.
The one causing me problem,
I think he don't know what really happen on me.

Still have 15 days.
Then I think I really need to find out the solution.
Even thought the result maybe not a good ending.
But as William Hung said " I've already gave my best! I have no regret! "
Yes, I really no regret, if the only method is like this.
I think I will only follow the path that God ready for me.
God won't want me keep crying and crying on these stupid stuff.
And I think I deserve a better bright future.

Pray for me everyone!
I need the power of God.
I need the power to fight this war!

Is time to be mature!

I like Vivian Tsu,
I appreciated for her attitude.
She is pretty, smart, and nice.
She work from 15 years old.
Work for something she dislike.
She have a lot of sad stories,
she had a lot of painful relationship.
She got a lot of hurts.
But she still so positive,
I don't really know her,
but at least infront of the camera,
on the magazine,
it is not the first time she tells people,
that's how she face the sadness.

曾 經 情 海 翻 波 的 Vivian 依 然 相 信 愛 ，
更 深 信 有 一 生 一 世 的 愛 情 ，
珍 惜 對 方 的 同 時 ， 也 要 愛 自 己 ，
她 說 ： 「 愛 自 己 多 一 點 ， 就 是 女 生 不 要 委 曲 求 全 、
不 要 太 黏 、 可 以 別 問 永 遠 ，
因 為 對 達 不 到 承 諾 的 人 追 求 永 遠 ，
簡 直 是 自 尋 煩 惱 。
愛 自 己 ， 女 生 更 加 要 找 方 法 肯 定 自 己 的 存 在 價 值 ，
不 一 定 要 單 靠 男 人 對 你 的 愛 來 評 定 自 己 ，
例 如 有 人 是 溜 冰 高 手 ， 有 人 唱 歌 很 棒 ，
都 會 因 滿 足 而 得 到 快 樂 。 」
問 她 可 想 像 傳 說 中 的 長 生 不 老 ，
Vivian 搖 頭 說 ： 「 我 覺 得 長 生 不 老 很 可 憐 ，
我 要 經 歷 生 老 病 死 ， 不 要 長 生 不 老 ，
我 不 希 望 孤 獨 地 看 見 身 邊 我 愛 的 人 一 個 個 老 去 死 去 。 」
「 不 能 選 擇 的 時 候 就 須 把 事 情 變 成 為 一 件 快 樂 的 事 。
我 的 人 生 觀 就 是 快 樂 跟 樂 觀 ， 人 只 可 以 活 一 趟 ，
我 覺 得 很 多 事 情 可 以 從 不 同 角 度 去 看 ， 我 是 不 會 難 為 自 己 的 。 」

Really feel she is right,
when we meet something that we can't control,
why not we just let it go?
Why not we just let time smooth our pain?
We should try to make ourself happy.
We should enjoy everyday, every moment.
We should try not to regret.

There are too many things out of control.
A lot of things that we can't change.
I need to be mature,
I need to move on,
I shouldn't just sit here,
and wait or make myself cry all the time.

I should love myself more,
I should thank God gave me so many wonderful things,
I should thank I have friends when I sad,
I should thank I can have soup when Mum know I am tired.
There are a lot of things can make us sad,
but now, I only want to remember the things make me happy.
I want to thank everyone who are supporting me all the time.
I want to thank everyone who listen to my complain.

I will be ok soon.
Don't worry, I will love myself.

Way back into Love

Really want to watch this movie.
Someone said I should not always watch sad movie.
But I think this is a good ending story.
Although I got a lot of hurts before,
although I never learn how to manage a relationship,
although I always make my boyfriend leave me,
although I feel alone all the time,
but I still believe in Love,
I still believe I worth for someone's love,
I deserve someone love me so much!

I love this song from the movie,
the lyrics so good,
seems like it is talking about me,



lyrics:

I've been living with a shadow overhead 

I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed 

I've been lonely for so long 

Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on 


I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away 

Just in case I ever need em again someday 

I've been setting aside time 

To clear a little space in the corners of my mind 


All I want to do is find a way back into love 

I can't make it through without a way back into love 

Oh oh oh 


I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine 

I've been searching but I just don't see the signs 

I know that it's out there 

There's got to be something for my soul somewhere 


I've been looking for someone to shed some light 

Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction 

And I'm open to your suggestions 


All I want to do is find a way back into love 

I can't make it through without a way back into love 

And if I open my heart again 

I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end 

There are moments when I don't know if it's real 

Or if anybody feels the way I feel 

I need inspiration 

Not just another negotiation 


All I want to do is find a way back into love 

I can't make it through without a way back into love 

And if I open my heart to you 

I'm hoping you'll show me what to do 

And if you help me to start again 

You know that I'll be there for you in the end


So want to watch this movie.
Must be so touching,
afraid I will cry again...
I wish someone will watch with me,
I hate watch alone,
I hate to be alone,
I dislike the feeling being alone.

God, please send me someone to watch this with me!

Can I be a NANNY??

Today my best friend was in hospital.
I was so worry about her,
and I talked with her boyfriend.
I suggested him to hire me as her NANNY.
Then I can be her bodyguard to go shopping with her.
I can be her health consultan to go cook for her.
I can be her buddy to listen her long long chat.
I can be her air bag when she want to temper.
I can listen, talk, cook, shop, hug!!!
HAHAAHHA>
Her boyfriend then screamed " Then What I can do if you do all of my part?"
I am sorry, but I am too important for her.
Then he said hire me by $2500 per day , full time work.
OH my God. what a good salary,
higher than my current's job.
Alright, I think maybe I should consider it.
Maybe I should pratice to be a NANNY,
where to find such a good job?

Although I need to live in another country,
only can back Hong Kong 3-4 times a year.
But I think it still worth.
Because I really want to take care of my best friend.
I want to leave Hong Kong and start a new life.
I want to meet new friends.
I want to breath some fresh air.

HAHAHAH!!!
WHo want to hire me as his/her NANNY???
Leave me a message..

OH!! Happy New Year!

I wish you happy all the time,
God will always be with you,
and he will give you all his best!

I did spend a night with my mum,
I wished to go to the Flower market near my district,
but too crowd. crazy!
I can't believe why so many people.
At last we gave up,
and we went to the furniture store!
Yes, we shopping in the furniture store at Night 30th!!
Anyway, I bought mum a comfortable 1 seat sofa.
And a Mah Jong table.
HOHOHO!! Although quite expensive,
but never mind, we can play mah jong next week.
And we can sit more comfortable when watching tv.

We went to APM also.
Saw 4 big pigs, and I took photos with them!


My mum love the golden one!!



Oh, when we took the bus to there,
I saw a couple on the bus.
I think they are over 40s..
and they seems so close,
seems so care each other,
they hands holding together,
so sweet!!
I hold my boyfriend can do that for me too.
I want him hold my hand all the time!!



After sending mum back home,
then I went to MongKok to meet my brother.
He invited me to play the MAH JONG!!
Yeah! Chinese New Year must play Mah Jong!
But damn it.
I lost $250 totally!
Need to earn more posket money this year then!

We played until 5am.
So sleepy, want to back home,
but brother said want to go to the flower market to buy some cheap things.
So I went with them. But I need to wake up and go to church at 10am.
So sleepy!!!

Here is the Entrance!


A shop selling hotdog and fishball.


It is already 6am. Everywhere is messy.
Empty store, rubbish on the round.


3 people's back, what are they thinking?
I think they are thinking is there anything can buy?


Brother and Siu Hong found something funny.
Is a dice which with a game sheet.
I don't know what it for.
But $10 for a cusion also not bad!



$20 for one, pretty??
They total bought 5 of that flower bouquie,
but I didn't, coz I don't want to bring it to church later.



Do you know what is FLower Sea?
Like this!


Not pretty, coz No make up, no sleep.
HAHAHAH, but still not bad in these flower sea picture!

Love can be so simple!!

I love you, so I want to hear you!
I love you, so I wait you to date me!
I love you, so even a sms also can make me laugh for 3 days!
I love you, so I can no need to eat and sleep!
I love you, so I can't sleep when you kiss me in the phone!
I love you, so can't take my eyes off you!
I lvoe you, so I hate other girls hug you in the pictures!
I love you, so I feel sad when you no call me for 2 days!
I love you, so my soul run away when you not free to meet me within 3 weeks!
I love you, so I worry about your healthy when you drunk!
I love you, so I keep crying when you not believe in me!
I love you, so I need to make myself wiser!
I love you, so I need to make myself busy!
I love you, so I need to be independent!
I love you, so I need to recover my own hurts!
I love you, so I need to feel your mind!
I love you, so I jealous!
I love you, so I nervous!
I love you, so I confuse!
I love you, so I careless!
I love you, so I insonmia!
I love you, so I brain blanked!
I love you, so I heartbeating!

Yes, Love can be simple,
but....
how to make it simple???
Oh God..
I am addicted to day dreaming,
I am addicted to wanna fall in love!!

Devil Go away!!!

Temptations really scare.
Temptations were everywhere,
everymoment, everyone.
It makes you don't know how to do,
Makes you confuse!
Makes you nervous!
Makes you believe something which is not real!
Makes you regret something after you chose wrongly!

After believing in god,
I think devil is looking at me now!
THey are trying so hard to make me leave my God!
They are trying to make me fail.
They are giving me a lot of temptations....

I hate it, but no method.
We can't avoid the devil.
I just can pray to God,
and ask him give me the power to fight with the devils.
To K.O. the temptations.

I don't know am I doing wrong now.
I don't know the decision is right or not.
The deadline is still here.
The hope THAT PERSON is still here.
I really don't want to spoil it.
God, please give me more confidence to pass these...
Please teach me what to do, and how to do it!!!

About my schedule at Sucking Valentine day!

I really hate this kind of celebration.
Thank god, I still have my job to be with me.

After I finished my day job,
I went to meet my friend.
We planned to watch Lam Dog's talk show,
and ate pizza.
Two lonely hearts sat together,
was there any fire??
UM.... Hard to tell.
But I did laugh like crazy.
That talk show was great.
I would love to own one too.

We finish one whole bottle of white wine,
little bit drunk, but I still have to work.

So hurry up and finish this glass,
then we need to go to the fuction.

I am glad that Techno Marine pity me,
and gave me such a nice fuction.
I at least can stay a night with many lonely hearts.
HAHAHAH, am I mean>??



Soler~~ Tonight's special preformers.
Poor Soler, can't spend your night with honey.
SING!!!! SING AS LOUD AS YOU CAN!! SCEARM IT OUT!!



Mr. WU LOK YIN...Done your job,and be good MC!!



Reporters, Ok I admit that I really don't like you guys so much.
But I understand this is your job,
so come on!!! SHOOT ME!!! Pictures only!! THANK!!

Mr. Chen Siu Pong!!! Long time no see!
Hope can act a new drama with you in the future!!

Mr. Kay Ho!!! Thanks for introduce GOD to me!
And thanks for letting me know TEMPTATION is horrible and scare!

Mr. Lio, the great photographer in the world!!! ( my world only )
Good Job, take some nice pictures for me when I get marry!!!

Thanks for all the guy staying with me at this boring night.
I really hope that my lover, my sweet heart can by myside.
" I don't mind spending sometimes,
just hanging out with you. "

Exhausted!!!!

Didn't sleep well.
My brain keep running.
I hope I can sleep the whole day.
I hope I can wake up anytime,
no need to be awaken by alarm clock!

Still have one day,
then I can enjoy a long long holiday.
FOUR DAYS!!!
Thank god.
At last, I can spend more time with my family.
I can sleep more to refill my energy!

Waiting for the next date...
Waiting for YOU to date me,
ask me out for a dinner.

I did spent a night with my friend at Valentine day.
Yes we both are lonely at this sucking night.
I will blog about it later when I have time.

Without internet in the office,
I really can't find anytime to blog,
or even check my email.
It is 24:00 now.
I still have dozen things need to do.
So, stop here, and update you guys with my news later!

Happy Chinese New Year!

I love BOWLING!!!

Yesterday someone invited me to have a Chinese new year dinenr with him,
and there were a lot of his friends, and his family.
I love to have dinner with a lot of people,
feel so warm, so noisy, and just feel good!
We ate a lot, his dad's cook was damn good!
I ate a lot, hahahah, I need to be on diet again!

After dinner, we went to play Bowling.
I love this game, because won't sweating!
I am not really good at it,
but glad that I am not the worse!
HAHAHAHH!!! Mr. Ho, you are a loser!!



We are ready to play. Yes 4 boys and me!
HAHAHA, dad and mum are home sweet home!



Game started!!! Sorry to post you guys' face,
but no worry, it is not so clear!



Mr. Ho work hard!!! See?
There is a good teacher teaching you!
Listen carefully!



First Game!! My score not bad!!



Second Games!! Oh!! Why I can't get over 100???

I only player two games,
my arms are so tired.
Anyway, I really felt happy last night.
I didn't meet them for a long long time.
I miss them! And they really made me so happy!
I enjoy going out with them.
I really hope they can spend more time with me,
but too bad, I need to work all the time,
there's at least 3 weeks I didn't meet him,
so sad!!!!

I did sleep very well last night,
maybe I am in good mood,
and did some excerise.
I hope tonight I can sleep well too.
I feel so exhausted everyday,
why?? I study too hard??
I don't know.
Tomorrow is Valentine's day,
I hate this holiday,
because I don't have anyone celebrate with me!
But never mind,
I still have my work,
and also I have work after work too.
HOHOHO!!! work for 15 hours,
yeah!!! I can no need to be sad even I don't have lover in the special day!!

I hate live without computer!

I need to move office again,
Damn, I just worked here since last Dec,
but this is the second time I move.
Too bad that my new office is not yet settle down,
now I am just sitting in a mountain of rubbish,
nothing to do,
no computer,
no internet,
I have nothing,
but with a desk of unplug desk top,
my plant, and books.
What I can do in the total 9 hours,
read bible, phone with Miss Lam sometimes,
sms with Miss Lam sometimes,
study my english text book,
read books....
What I can do is only with phone, and books.
I am becoming a old lady!

I think this is God's idea,
cause he wants me to concentrate on my study,
I will have a english Toeic examination at March.
I must pass it to get my degree.
Thank God to let me have none workload's job,
a no computer and internet's life after earthquake!

I hope after Chinese new year,
everything will going to be OKAY!!

Oh my god!!! Really too much!

I was tidying home just now,
and I found out I have over 200 dolls in my room.
CRAZY!!!!
How can I have so much??
Over 100 was Hello Kitty,
and a lot of them I already forgot where to buy!!



It made out a Doll Mountain!
Anyway, I just put some of them on my yahoo bidding,
if anyone want to buy those doll which have my SMELL!!
Please go to my yahoo shop,
bid for my dolls,
or other stuff!!!
I still have many Hifi, dolls, books, CDs,
still have many things want to sold out!!

I want to make my room more tidy,
and less rubbish,
for what I don't need,
I will just donate it,
or sell it out!

I won't earn big money,
cause you can see the price are super low.
Alright, anyone want to have my stuff,
then go to check my yahoo page,
and see anything suit you!

I need a deep breath!!!

Is Feb now,
Still at the beginning of 2007.
Already two months in this company.
I can't say I love this job,
because I really don't have anything to do.
I can't say I hate this job,
because it really makes me can do my private things at working hour.
But I don't realyl enjoy sitting infront of the pc for 9 hours,
only to MSN with friends, and studying my school..
I want to have more challenges,
I want to learn more from this job,
I want to succeed something.

Sometime I will think should I really change to another company?
Should I search for a new job?

I appreciated it because it really makes me have time to do MY THINGS.
Study when in office,
Chat with friends,
Blog anytime,
but I can learn nothing here.

But I am thinking,
is it because GOD know that I need to have more time to study,
and he knows I need a big money for my school fee,
so he offer me this job,
with less workload and more freedom??
If yes, I really thank GOD,
because he really make me feel like I can my pay just need to sit here.
If this is really what GOD offer me,
I will try my best to improve myself in this period.
Study hard, learn more,
learn how to be a good girl.

I really don't want to make others worry about me,
I also don't want anyone disappointed on me.
God, please let me learn more from you,
and let me grow up to the level that you want me to.

I am confuse too...

Still have 29 days...
Things still not yet clear,
I looked at the sky when I am home,
counting down the rest of the days...
Deadline keep delay and delay..
I am giving you chance,
I am giving myself some more chance too.
What I am looking for?
I don't know too.
But glad that my cat is beside me.
The trees are still growing,
Moon still lighting up the sky,
Wind still blowing.
Everything seeems as usual...

Another drawing...

Today I heard a news..
a news that I didn't expect to be so fast...
but I should happy for her,
at least she will be happier than now,
she is luckier than me...

When I got back my office,
I suddenly wanted to draw something,
I have a idea...
Then I just drew out these 2 pictures.
Very simple drawing,
but sometimes simple is the best to describe...


Four Leaves grass..


People said that if you have a four leaves grass on hand,
you will be lucky for whole day,
get what you want,
as happy as you wish,
I hope I can have one.
I really want to be happy,
and have what I want,
what I need,
what I wish....



Waiting....



Human need love,
and we are asking for love everyday,
but what we deserve?
We are seeking for someone everyday, every moment,
but are we really succeed?
Are we really get what we deserve?
When chance come infront of you,
did you catch it?
When you lost a chance,
will you regret?
I always hesitate beside LOVE,
the one I love he don't even look at me,
the one I have no feeling but always accompany me when I need.
I stand infront of this heart shape stuff,
trying to understand the meaning of love,
trying to find out what I really want...
but it seems too difficuit for me to understand.
LOVE really too complicated for me.

From what I can see in this picture,
is only the moody sight of my back...

OK, I've got a method.

Just now, I scan all the interview, and pictures in the pc.
I don't want to keep those original copy at my home,
it really annoying to keep looking them.
After I scan all into my pc,
I will burn it out.
And then forever put it in my drawer.
I don't want to look at this,
until one day,
my grandson want to know about me.
Or my son want to know me.
If not, I will keep in my drawer forever.

What if the CD spoil and can't read in the future?
Nevermind, then I think is very good that I can really forget it,
God wants me to forget it,
hahahah!
Keeping OLD Newspaper at home really born many bugs.
I don't like this, I hate dirty!!

Maybe you will ask why not I just throw everything,
and not even scan in pc.
I don't know, I feel so confused.
It was my memories, it was my past,
although I don't really like this,
although I really hate it.
But it still my past,
it still eblongs to me,
I grow up from the past...
That's why I chose to avoid look at it,
but not realyl erase it everywhere...

Is it good method???
I don't know.
Maybe one day,
I will keep look at it again,
and admire how many things I did when I still young...

Memories~~

Starting to tidy my room,
throw out the rubbish,
throw the magazine.
I found out many pictures,
and magazine with my interview before.
Those photos when I am still a new face model,
photos when I am working somewhere...

I really feel sad when look at them,
although they gave me a way to this entertainment industry,
but I did cry many times within this preiod.
I also lost a lot of things with this job.

I have a lot of bad memories with it.
When I looked at the pictures,
I rememeber that how I hate the job before,
how hard feeling when someone force me to do something,
how sick when people keep ask me take some disgusting pictures.
I hate people to keep ask me obey them but with stupid reason.
I really want to forget all my past,
although if I don't have the past,
won't have the ME right now.

But I really dislike it,
can't say I am regreting,
just...
I feel so sad for what they force me to do..
Depress when I saw the ugly and sick pictures...
Miserable with the news, the interviews, the articles they wrote.

I want to have a brain eraser.
Eraser all my bad memories.
Eraser all sadness in my mind.
I hope I can just keep the best memories with me.

Soon will be Chinese New year,
and I am 25 already.
Time really goes so fast.
Already mid-20....
I know I need to be brave, and move on.
I really want to step out of my darkness shadow.
I want to be a new ME.
A ME which will be happy,
A ME which will admire everything I have,
A ME which will can decide my future,
A ME which won't let other convict my life,
A ME which will enjoy every moment.

Really want to say I LOVE YOU to all my best friends,
to all which use your heart to be my friend,
I really appreciate to have you all.
No one knows the future,
is unpredictable to know when will i die.
That's why I want to let you know I really treasure all of you right now.
I don't want to regret when I don't have the chance to say anymore.

I want to go for a vacation.

I always want to go for a backpack vacation.
No shopping, No 5 stars hotel,
No big dinner, No entertainment...
Just admire the sky and cloud,
walking and walking,
lay down on the grass,
read book under the sun,
switch off my mobile,
wear some normal clothes,
pick up a map,
and then start my adventure.

It maybe no need a big money,
I can find some cheap motel,
just keep sight seeing everyday,
enjoy a cup of Mocha in a small cafe.
Learn the culture,
feel the peaceful.

I wish I can study aboard,
then I can learn a lot of new things,
start a new life,
make new friends.

I don't want to go to shopping,
I just want to be relax...
But it seems really difficult for me to do this now.
I need to save for my backpack trip.
I need to save my holiday.
HAHAH,
maybe I need a partner to go with me,
but she must be a single,
I don't want to go with her boyfriend...

I really want to take many pictures for where I have been.
I enjoy a normal life now.
Don't ask about my family,
don't ask about my private things.
I am now, only a normal person.
A stupid princess that only want to have a happy life!!

劉若英~~生日快樂

I really understand what means economize!!!

I love shopping, and I spend a lot of money to shop all the time.
I never have no money in my wallet.
Even when I don't have any job,
I still have many money in my bank,
I still can use my credit cards.
Jesus, I have nothing now...
Hahaha, I need to learn how to save money.
I need to learn how not to waste anythings.



I never use up any products.
I never finish any things until it really can't use anymore!
See the picture,
this lip gloss soon finish,
so weird feeling,
I never use something for so long.
I have over 30 lips sticks, lips glosses at home,
but none of them I used over 20 times.
They are still new.
But too bad, I don't have any money to go shopping now,
so I need to use my old stuff..( actually is Brand New old stuff )

Am I bad girl that I always wasting things??
I am not really want to waste,
just when I saw something good,
I will want to have it...
That's why I will have last season's clothes which still have tag.
That's why I will have some cosmetic which still in package.
That's why I will have many things in my room but I never use it....

OKAY, I know I need to be good girl now.
I can''t waste any dollar.
Because money is hard to earn, and hard to save!!!
Sorry Mum!!!

HAHAH!! Am I still A new face?

I met a stupid guy on the street few days before.
I was hurry to meet my friend and have dinner.
And he just suddnely stand infront of me,
do you know what he want??

He show me this!!!




He is a production assistant!!
What the hell!!
Am I still look like a new face??
Do you think I will be your model??
Do you think you can cheat me money by you stupid face?
I am not mean, but I really want to take his photo and show you!
He has a lot of acne on he forehead.
He is non professional.
He kept shaking when talking to me,
seems like I am going to eat him!

HAHAHAH, he ask me " Hello I am a model agency assistant,
do you want to be a model? WE can help you to get some modeling job!"
Oh my god!!!
Then I just said " Okay, maybe you should contact TVB first to discuss,
do you need their numbers? "
Am I bad? No I don't think I am.
Actually I know I am not famous,
but come on.
If you want to be professional, and find new face on the street.
Please make sure you are not talking to someone which already a artiste.
And make sure you read newspaper everyday!!

And no one will call his name as " ZERO ".
HAHAHAH. Is it funny to say, " Hi!! Nice to meet you I am Zero! "

I really want to blog what I want to blog.

I care someone so I will blog about them,
for those I never mentioned in my blog,
sorry, you have no fate to be someone important for me.
I am not going to show anyone's private things here,
and I am not going to tell any secret here.
Blog is really part of my life.
I am too easy to forgot about things.
Yes, I have some problem with my memory.
I can't remember things clearly.
That's why I need to write it down everyday,
to remind me, to make me remember it.
Too bad that seems really annoying to some people.
And not everyone love to be mentioned in my blog.
I need to say sorry for that.
But I really want to let you know that,
I care you, that's why I don't want to forget you one day.
I like you, that's why I want you be my part of life.
You are important for me, that's why I will spend time
to write down what happen bewteen us.
Of cause, I will still blog about someone I hate, I dislike.
I don't know, I am sorry to make you feel disgusted.

Anyway, I really love to take pictures inside my bathroom.
My small but tidy bathroom's lighting super amazing.
See?? I am very pretty in the pictures!!
HAHAAHH!!


My lovely Mr. Ball
Stick to me all the time.
I can't imagine if one day you gone from my sight.
I will cry soooooooooooo much!!
Yes, I know I will!
So please don't leave me, HUHHHH!!

Birthday Gift again!!

So is time to post some new birthday gift here.
HAHAHA, This year I really got a lot of birthday!
Too bad that I still can't get the one that I really waiting for!
Don't know will he really give me a gift...
Anwyay, here are some latest gift this year I got.

1)

Golden Pig series!!
Stephen gave it to me!
Very funny right??

And it can look like this,
Have some good words behide the pigs..
But how come written on their ass??

金豬疊羅漢!!!

2)

Penny's gift~~ A crystal pacifier.
So nice gift!!
But I need to find something to put it on..

3)

Last night, I went to my christian artiste's friend's home,
we had pizza for dinner, and watched scare movie togehter.
Total four people sat on the small sofa...
So close, so warm...
Maybe I should realyl treasure for what I have now,
and don't just focus on one thing.
Thanks for the birthday card JJ.
You are nice girl!

Girls love to buy perfume for gift,
I love this Bvlgari, Thanks JJ and Zac and Kay,
for giving me this wonderful night,
and brought me into God's arm.