Two days off~~

Didn't back to work for two days,
not because I am sick...
Just because there is something happened,
and I need to solve...
I was quite sad about what happened on me...
It turns me down, and nearly want to suicide sometimes..
But glad that at last I am still alive.

I really want to have a break,
I am going crazy with all the stress.
No matter from work, study, relationship with family, and HONEY..
everything just keep annoying me,
and didn't go smooth.

I didn't blame anyone,
because I know I have the liability for these.
I just want to solve everything,
and make everything going well.
Am I dream too early?
I want to be happy, and simple.
I am not wishing to be any conscious dream.
Am I silly?

I really want to have a deep breathe...
If I have money now,
I would love to run away,
go to somewhere far far away,
lay down on the grass,
close my eyes,
feeling the warm from the sun,
listening to the bird's sing,
doing nothing, but just lay down and breathe.
I need some fresh air in this pollution world.

I hate crying all the time when I feel sad,
feel lost, feel guilty, or feel unsatisfied.
I do nothing wrong, but peoples just love to pick up the bone from eggs.
They love to put all the fault on me.
I don't like them. They are fake.
I just want to be alone,
or just want to be with my honey.
Even my family also fake to me,
and they are so selfish that they just think for themself...

I am totally disappointed with them.
But what can I do?
I have no good point.
I can do nothing...

Alright, maybe crying at the mid nite,
drinking wine with peanuts is the only things I can do.